- you do know that seeing that i say that everyday lmao. The thing is just because i say it so much does not mean I say it with any less compassion. I   more...may never EVER in our lives be able to tell you how much I love you. but I swear to you every day I am alive I try my hardest to show you. There are certain things about you that just make me smile. Though we go through misery, anger, and maybe brief hate I don't care i want to go through those things if we must, but I must go through it with you. We'll take things one step at a time my love I'll hold your hand if you'll hold mine? I maybe a dramatic idiot at times and sometimes I am scared even though I hate to admit it. You've always been here for me since day one and I couldn't be anymore happy than I am now. I didn't know the meaning of "happy" till we met. Arran from the depts of my heart I am saying not once has any one made me feel the way you do. I am in love with you and by that I mean I look at my future and your with me it's OUR future. I have so much amorousness for you. Your so perfect I want to always remind you that. You've never need to try to be perfect at all arran just you being yourself has made this girl fall madly in love with you. Fuck the whole world all I need is you arran. I've never loved anyone you really taught me how to love and our bond and relationship has gotten stronger and stronger you make my heart just melt baby boy you stole my heart the day you said "I love you" I want to always belong to you now and for the end of time. I found a place by you side and that is where I know I belong. I love you Arran.  less

Well through out my life I have met and encountered many people whom made a small, but helpful impacts on my life. By far although I have strong motions   more...towards these certain people only one has really made such a big difference. I may be partial with saying that he is the most perfect person in the world, (seeings as there are no perfect people) but to me he is perfection. No one really has been able to relate to me and I doubt anyone will ever be able to, although Arran does more than relate to me he understands me. Although our lives maybe very different I am able to feel secure with letting my feelings be known and express them to him with the utmost detail, and feeling a tad aloof afterwards. His personality alone is very intriguing, and I find him rather complex a person. I just am not able to perceive why he is so compassionate to me, and how he can be compassionate with out making me feel low or pitied. He is very philanthropic, and I am completely baffled by these emotion and intense feelings that arise when he is with me. It's extremely difficult not to be amazed at this boy. He who has only lived eighteen years of life knows so much more about life. Than a girl who has only been so imbecilic of life with the difference of a year. I can articulate any feelings or hurt to him. As I see it he is a very easy person to talk to and it makes me feel exultant being so devoted with such a person as himself. His physical features are aristocratic, but although he may be brilliantly handsome it is not at all the reason I have deep affection for him. I love his dark brown hair at an equidistant length that is getting roughly to the point of a libidinous mane like quality. I am so delighted in his height. Although the fact he is towering me in height makes my face flush at the thought that I have to stand on my toes to reach his lips. The most desirable of his features without getting too racy is his lips. They are so perfectly curved in such a desirable angle, and yet he states he does not like that physical feature on his face I glorify it awkwardly. His voice is so infatuating I simply adore it! I for one think I've fallen pray to the British accent. He has a deep delectable voice. He has done so much for me in the months we have been together than anyone has ever done for me in my life time. Now I have been going on about how he has changed my life, and your probably wondering how did this boy change my life? He has done this by doing something incredible, treating me with respect, aknowledging me for me and not my appearance, and trying his hardest to take care of me to the best of his ability. He comforts me with my doubts and fears. I have grown to trust him deeply more than I thought I ever could trust a person. Arran lets me speak to him about anything, and even encourages me to speak up even when I try to assure him there is nothing wrong. I almost always feel me to be a burden to him, but he tries ever so hard to convince me to stop thinking that. That is how he changed my life. He always ask me how my day was when we speak on a daily bases, When I am ill he ask me almost every thirty minutes if i feel up to talking and whether I want to rest, and advices me what to do. He calls me when I ask him to or if I want him or need him to. Arran listens to me with excruciating detail to my every word! This is what really impresses me to no end. When he can revise something I said (that i barely notice myself being the one who said it) with exact and specific detail. I begin to feel so happy even though he may be upset or worried about the situation. When he speaks he can make any situation into a lighter version more of a blemish of hurt if you will. He is very polite to me and treats me with such magnanimity I do not deserve, The way he speaks is always to remind me he loves me. His actions always seem to hold a justice. You can obviously tell (if you knew him) that he analyzes every problematic situation to his best before choosing to act upon it. Yet if I am every hurt or scared he will go right into action in seconds maybe not even knowing fully what happened other than i am hurt. I know he does not act kind out of receiving admiration, respect or praise from me or anyone. His actions are all altruistic for no benefit does he gain from making others happy, besides the fact he makes me happy and I love him. When I am aggrieved with something he will not think twice and help me all the way till I being to convalescent. I know all to well he should not help me as much as he does. In that way I am no better a person to rely solely on him. The simple things he does just by saying "i love you" everyday to remind me he does, just fills me with unexplainable joy. He does not even notice that these small yet sentimental verbal gifts he gives me such a warm hearted feeling. He makes me cry a joyful cry when we say those sweet words to me. This is because he is kind and generous at heart. To believe that it is instinctive to him, and to think of such things only makes me love him all the more. Most importantly he gave me something I've always wanted to have. I've always wanted to be loved for me that was all and he was the first to give that gift to me. Not just that though he gave me someone to love and dedicate myself to. I did not know I or thought I would ever need such a feeling of being wanted. To me it felt such little importance as if no one ever would really love me just for me. Arran is a very loving and compassionate guy. Who has never been afraid to show me that he cares and will defend me if ever comes a time i need a hero. To me his is very heroic as he has saved me many a time in many ways. You could never conceptualize how he leaves me feeling when he says just simply those three words. His deep yet refreshingly graceful way with words is incredible. I stand in amazement as he explains me to myself as if reading my every thought and intention. It's completely perplexing to ho  less