 | a Mack of all Trades
..I want to be something like that
Y'know.. I have no idea why, but I think my mind has partially shut down in the last few years
It takes a massive amount of effort to listen to people and notice things
I hardly care about anything except for the things I want to learn
I do love the world for it's nature and cultures scattered across the lands and seas, but I hate all the evil in it, y'know? It's like.. it's unfortunate, but I believe most of the people I see are tainted by it. Myself included.. and it sucks. It makes it hard for me to trust people, especially from all the shit I've had to put up with from those I've even considered my friends.
I wonder a lot about why I'm so interested in having a comprehensive understanding of all these things in the world when I'm only going to be here for a limited time. Since I can't leave for some time to come, I always figure I might as well do something. I just don't want to follow the formula. Most of the time I'm zoning out, absorbed in the turmoil of this dilemma. If I stay in my usual daze, I'm wasting this given life, but I am not willing to work hard for a lifestyle I do not believe in. I don't care about making a lot of money or having a successful career. I don't care about making a name for myself and being remembered for decades to come. I just want to wander around taking in the sights, learning how to communicate, understand, and do what I can for the souls around me and I don't want language to be a barrier to my development
I made this joke before about wanting to stand on every corner in the world, but it's kind of true
Did you notice how I have a dual-nature when it comes to interaction?
I want to see the world and meet people, but I'm usually oblivious to my surroundings and don't pay attention when I'm with my friends
Weird right? I gotta find a way to get over this
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