It sucks that the view counter is down for our videos now.Even if they are featured,you have no idea how many people watched.An update on my health.I have been monitoring my blood pressure at home since I stopped taking my blood pressure medication and it is just what I suspected.My blood pressure was high because I was taking those meds and once the effects of them totally woke off,my blood pressure is almost completely normal.130 over 88 average now compared to 155 over 99 before.Doctors do not   more...really care about lying to you,as long as they make money and give you medication that gives you high blood pressure and moderates it so you need those meds to survive.My skin is better in some places and the same in others.My chest has a little patch of a rash and flaking skin but my backside is still the same.I can not afford the light treatments so perhaps when Obama`s health care gets approved,I will be able to get proper treatments.In January,my sister is moving out to leave me here alone so I have to get my own food now.Will manage somehow but she still has to come around to check on me.I can not blame her for moving out,although she promised to fix up my house.Now I have to attempt to do this myself.I will get tools and see what I can do.My right hand is bad and I will not be able to do alot at one time.My back is the main problem for me now and walking the dog is agony for me.beside a handfull of friends,I do not feel loved here anymore on livevideo.com.eveyone is elsewhere now and my former hometown channel OnTheAirTV,I do not feel welcome there any longer since my videos were deleted and I got the blame for it.After I went to Horrorfind Weekend 11 and did interviews on that sights name,I feel like a fool for doing that now.Just because I did not donate money to that sight,it broke my spirit and my heart so much,I can hardly make videos anymore.I do messages on TokBox and read my poetry to those few friends I have there.How come others can talk about their health here but if I do,I am just "crying" for attention? People say they are sick on bulletins and everyone wishes them well while I get hated for it by many channels here.I had my finger on the delete button here 5 times in the last 2 weeks and almost deleted my channels here.I can not promise I will not delete here because I am going through extreme changes and I must concentrate on other things now that I have to fend for myself.Take care.  less

I just went to the local wrestling event here,Baltimore Elite Wrestling Alliance,Damnation,the next to the last event of the year for this league.I made many great friends on MySpace in this wrestling alliance and today I let them use my cane in two hardcore matches.I have to use it when walk long distances now.I made the mistake of going down someones house Saturday to ride with someone to the Xtreme Maryland Wrestling but it got canceled due to the weather and an accident on the local beltway,so   more...I thought I could walk home,only a few miles away.By the time I got home,my back and legs were trembling in pain.I am too heavy now and can not even walk the dog without some pain.And now,my caretaker thinks she can just leave me here alone after I let her live here for free because her son wants her to help him with his bills.I will have no other choice but to get a lawyer and write S.S.D.I. again about what was done to me after my stroke.Everything I told them was true and now my hand has been forced to report his.I will probably loose my house and have to go to someplace to take care of me the way she wouldn`t.My health is fading due to my weight and not having any medications.My sister has never cared to get me the proper healthcare and did not ever help put these bills in my name.They are still in my dead parents name after 2 years and I am frightened to death of being alone in life.  less