Forget about who I am, forget about my name, my appearance… It is not like you will remember anyway. Everyone has something to aim for, to believe in and to look forward to. Caking on tones of makeup, having more money than your neighbour, buying more Balenciaga bags than your friends will not make you a better person. No matter how gorgeous someone looks, how perfect their bodies are, personality will forever shines within. However you convince yourself, you cannot deny that personality is never something you can hide behind closed doors. Smile while you can, be grateful that you have the things that some people don't have, no matter if it is a perfect family, or if you have a high IQ, or as simple as having water supply. Because some countries are so poor that people there could not afford a simple education, clothing, basic needs and supplies. Some people might only be able to have 2 showers in a year, it is not a joke, I do not find it funny. One day something would wipe that smile off your face completely, but there will not be time left for you to regret.

My name is China Le. Now remember me.

I would like to meet the future me. I want to see where i'm going to be in 10 years, 40 years since I have no goals other than to be always near my loves at the moment, and i'm just as fucked up as any other hobo you pick up downtown. It would be interesting to see where my road ends, eh?

I love my sweetheart Arran and yeah I say that alot in my rants or what not. Like I fucking care how many times I've said that. I will say he is the most brilliant man there ever was I'll say it a infinite amount of times and it will never satisfy me. I can never get this amazing person out of my head. I've said this before I am "Arran Crazy" and I like it that way.

The person I want is someone who can stump me when I'm upset and blathering on about the world coming to it's end, or when I'm so angry at the world. I want someone who can make more sense than me. A person who is strong and loving enough to sit me down and tell me whats right from wrong when I just don't know anymore. A person who can protect me and show me they love me. A person who can please and satisfy my every whining need. Someone to listen to me cry and tell me it will be alright. A person who needs not to try and make me happy but being in the presence of lights my heart up. A person who can say the most amazing and well thought of words in a matter of seconds then believe that it was nothing. A person who can always say the right thing in times of dire need. A person I can need, admire, cherish, care for, desire, and love. To be honest I never knew that I wanted any of these things until I met a man who showed me compassion and love. I understood soon enough the qualities I loved in him and found the truth was I want and always have wanted a brilliant and awefully modest sweetheart named Arran, yet unbeknowist to him most beyond the word perfection of a person he really is. I fucking love him,

my Arran baby

I am a REALLY odd person. I know most people say I'm happy/damn emo with being different. Shut the hell up your not "different" being socially inept, hated, lost, depressed, overly shy, and angry is just apart of being human. We bleed and hurt to understand we are alive. It does not make you special. Go to a therapy group you'll find some one ironically like you personality wise. For an example fight club was a movie awhile back in which the main character goes to therapy just for the attention and meets a woman just like him so devastatingly that it triggers his psychosis to breakdown. I am displeased by the majority of people. If you say/think being like me and having certain personality similarities with me will make me like you or get you a shot of knowing me personally. Nope your all too wrong I have no interest in meeting people like me in the least. Truth of the matter is I don't like myself all that much. I know I am alive so I live life like there's no tomorrow not to say that I will ever say the I hate myself so I want to die sorta crap. I love life and the uncertainties of it the never ending cycles of paranoia, hate, perseverance, selfishness, lies, and love. I live for tomorrow and love living it. Anyway I'm getting off track, No your not different there are others like you. The only difference in a person really is how there outlook and behavior towards people is. Being different and amazing is only so simple yet I have not yet to understand it fully. All I know of perfection is the ideal example I have of the person I admire and adore most (obviously my Arran if you read to this far you should know) What makes him amazing is that he is no different than you or me (physically speaking and no I don't count boobies or dick so shut it) yet he has the compassion and characteristic of a god. Someone so gentle and kind can not possibly be held in one being but it exist and I will never know how lucky I am to be able to love and be loved in return by such a perfect person. He is purely himself and not tainted by superficial and idiot propaganda. He is himself and I couldn't ask for a more incredible person to live the rest of my life with. He causes me great joy and makes my body calm mentally and physically at an alarming rate. What he can do no one else can ever do You couldn't even begin to compare! (my about me is updated quite often)

I'm not a legend and I'm not at the disco.
I'm not a city soundtrack, and I'm not anything 'core'.
Scary kids are not scaring me, and I'm not on fire.
I don't wear prada, and no, I'm not the new cancer

I love to say MWAH!
i lack ability to write about me's that wont give you nightmares. I’m a good person, really. You won’t regret meeting me.