Exploring my train of thought, and emotions, with something that's hit me so very hard!

I'm trying to tell a story using clips from Livevideo

I felt good with the revenge sex; then I felt really bad. Now I think I'm developing feelings for McCoy.
I'm confused.
(heart) Blue

Many of you believe watching TV is a harmless, entertaining activity worthy of your attention, but the video below will give you some eye-opening things to consider.

In just under four minutes you’ll learn   more...why television is essentially a platform for elite advertisers to peddle their wares, and how the steady stream of images could be making your life in reality seem dull and slow in comparison.

If you watch TV, you owe it to yourself to watch this video.  less

I did not make this.
One of the best VGMVs I've seen. It uses Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, Final Fantasy VII: DoC, and Final Fantasy X-2.

this is me reading a poem i wrote this afternoon and then a bonus at the end. enjoy.

Paying respect.

#2 of 10 in the LiveVideo Offensive - 2

i just wanted to share some of my paintings and you can see them better. thanks to those that have encouraged me to share more of them.

An intense ride! Turn your speakers up to full, or put on headphones! This video is somewhat of an answer as to who I am, and what I do. Thank you to BaronDixon for pointing me to the software, and   more...for all the invaluable help, and guidance!  less

this is me working through some feelings in poetry. this is how it felt at my last doctors appointment. essentially, this is my reaction. thanks for watching.

My comment to candylashes video question

snowed in..

A quick video to describe to you how they use the best weapon known to mankind. The sad part about it we pay for these weapons ourselves and with some the bigger the better. Well..."Check this   more...video out" its a true EYEOPENER!  less

My thoughts as brought on my W.H.Auden's Funeral Blues

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Original poetry from 1996
i would like to thank LTAdams for giving me the courage to repost this poem after i struggled with revisiting parts of my past that i feared would open old wounds... True the   more...sound was a mess in the first one, but a part of me was glad it was not right so i could take it down and once agin hide from those old feelings ...thanks Peter for helping me to face the darkness with new found courage :)

SHE

Theres a place in my mind
where
She
is the most
caring
beautiful one
She
is the most
loving
spirited one
her patience
and kindness
only overshadowed
by her
warmth and unselfishness
but there's a place in
my heart
where
She
weighs heavy
like a sinking stone
and momories of times
She
left me
uncovered and alone
waiting and watching
my peices
come apart
fragments
calling out
then retreating
to lick the wounds
of her love
as i reach out
She
runs away
leaving
only an ache
for me to digest .....

EyeNetaSeeMore
1996  less

samantha sang & bee gees

this video started out with a question from Kierri ( check out her channel ! ) on why we sometimes cannot take compliments and ended up making me feel like a small blue thing then i remembered this   more...song then it got all outta hand so.... here it is whatever it is, i have now learned to crash my new movie making program ha ! and some said it could not be done ! haha ! thanks for watching everyone :) and special thanks to Kierri for the question!  less

Dealing with pain that you don't deserve.

AEROSMITH

this is a response to Kierri's video and it was impeccable timing that Kierri made this video and shared it. thank you so much. by you being blessed, i got to bless someone else...thanks.

new to moviemaker so please have mercy :) thank you

Koda Kumi's version of Real Emotion, which was also the original. I kinda like this one better. And she's hot in this one.. w00t.

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