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Fair trade is necessary if we want to stop poverty

WAR

Stop being self-dishonest. We are one and equal. Stop being mind.
Dont think you are - know you are. The mind is deception.
I do not accept anything less than who I am.
I do not accept anything less than   more...who you are.
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Life as breath as onness and equality as your essence.

Abuse of Life by the Human spieces
music: Jorn Hardus
song used: micheal Jackson Earth Song.
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movie relevant to this not so often shown side of the human kind   more...is Earthlings:
http://video.google.com/googleplayer.swf?docid=6361872964130308142&hl=en&fs=true" style="width:400px;height:326px" allowFullScreen="true
Self Forgiveness on Massacre
I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself to seperate myself from the abuser
I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself to seperate myself from the abused, not realising that they are the manifested consequence of the self accepted and allowed enslavement and abuse of life by all.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to submit to feelings of regret when being confronted with images of abuse and torture, not realising I have a definition of myself that is apparently more or better then what is seen and manifested as consequence of all beings equally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge torture and abuse of animals as seperate from me, not realising that I am equally responsible for abuse as the abuser
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reject and deny what has manifested as the physical, not realising that this is manifested consequence of the self accepted and allowed human nature.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel worthless, not realising that i am reacting from a self defined point of view comparing myself to what i see and supporting the torture and abuse.
I forgive myself for not allowing myself to embrace myself and confront my self defined existence that i am reacting from and creating opinions with.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deceiving myself to think and believe that what i experience as thoughts feelings and emotions has anything to do with the physical here
I return here as breath as life
I Stop myself as selfdefinition
I Stop myself as an opinion
I Stop myself as thoughts, feelings and emotions
I Remain Here As Breath  less

http://desteni.co.za I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I require and need another separate from me to fulfill and complete me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself   more...to accept my self and incomplete and unfulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate me from myself as another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to seek and search for love in another from who and which I have separated me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘love'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘relationship'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require another to be completed and fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require another separate from me to be loved and to experience love.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to consider the words ‘falling in love' – only noticing and considering the word love in the equation and not the word ‘fall'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to dream and wish and hope and desire to be ‘whisked' and wiped off my feet by an eligible attractive man or attractive beautiful woman of which I pictured in my mind as being: The One.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to condition and conform to society by desiring wanting and needing a must-have relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to influence and change myself to attract a hopeful possible partner.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that ‘knees going weak' and ‘butterflies in the stomach' are actually experiences of me instead of realising they are manifestations of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually literally ‘buy into' the ludicrousness of the fact that love actually exists.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that love and relationship is the trap of this world to remain pre-occupied in ‘my own world' instead of opening my eyes and ears to see and hear what's really going on in this world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘fall' into the trap of the mind as love and relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define love and sex under the category of the manifestation of a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become blind and deaf by the overwhelming experiences of feelings and emotions within a relationship and closed myself off and separated myself from the rest of the world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use a relationship as an escape from the world to not have to face the world I exist in and experience myself within.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I will ‘find' and ‘discover' myself within a relationship with another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that emotions and feelings for another separate from me are actually experiences of me as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to desire, want and need a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to merely accept and allow emotions and feelings for another separate from me – believing such emotional and feeling experiences to be ‘normal' and ‘okay' because everyone else is also experiencing them.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to enjoy ‘being loved' by another – instead of me accepting joy as me as the expression of me as self love.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to love myself and because of this – I went on a journey to find, search and seek love elsewhere.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that by me wanting, desiring, wishing and needing a relationship – I was actually asking for a relationship with me.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to ever in my life, not once in my l  less

Je zegt: “Ik kan er niets aan doen, ik ben geprogrammeerd om angst te hebben” - waarmee je alleen maar bevestigd dat je een robot bent.
Maar als je ernaar kijkt, hier nu, waarom bestaat angst in de wereld,   more...nu? Om een ieder te beschermen tegen een ieder. Ik bedoel, kijk, de meeste tijd dat je angst in je leven gebruikt hebt, was omdat je bang was voor een ander mens.  less

Sta jezelf niet toe jezelf te bedriegen. Want uiteindelijk zul je de gevolgen van je eigen bedrog moeten dragen. En niemand kan iemand anders bedriegen - begrijp dat: het is Onmogelijk. Je kunt Alleen   more...Jezelf misleiden. Misleiding van een ander is niet mogelijk. Er is toestemming nodig van die ander, maar in dat moment van participatie, in dat moment van toestemmen. worden zij niet langer bedrogen door een ander, maar bedriegen zij zichzelf.
Dus bestaat alleen Zelf Bedrog - er bestaat geen ander bedrog. Anu heeft niemand bedrogen; iedereen stemde ermee in door hun participatie.
De Elite bedriegen de Wereld niet; iedereen stemt ermee in door hun participatie.  less

Self Realization as Awareness Artist Impressions http://www.desteni.co.za

Reincarnation Artist Impressions - Evolution Revisited? http://www.desteni.co.za

Artist Impressions of Horses by Andrew Gable at Desteni-Ranch - http://www.desteni-ranch.net

Part 2
My final year of art school i had enough loan money left to take a one month trip to Italy to look at the masterpieces i would study and adore in the books at the library.
I seen this critical in   more...my development as an artist and my chances to ''make it'' as an artist.

Looking back now i remember while in Italy noting how ‘’thin’’ the paintings were painted, to the point where some were nearly transparent. When times are tough and money is short you must compromise as an artist.

The point to bring out here though is that money afforded me the opportunity to see these paintings, to actually stand before them in real life, to study them in real life, not just in books. I gained many insights into different methods of painting/drawing. Methods which found their way onto my canvas’s once i returned. A ‘’new’’ look in my work, A new expression coming through, an expression that went hand in hand with the 4 thousand dollars i spent on the trip.

Here again look how money is the key component in the development of my expression. See the extreme degree within which money infiltrated itself within my expression. An extreme, Revealed most blatantly in the fact that the part considered most sacred in painting process, the paintings themselves, the very ‘’originality of the artist’’ the style, the look, the actual physical, visual, appearance of the work, is directed and determined by MONEY!



After graduation i moved home because i could not afford to paint and live in the city, my parents allowed me to set up studio at their place to live and work until i made enough money to again try the city. My parents could see what it would actually require if i were to have a chance to make it as an artist, thus they supported me where they could. Now at home my intention was to build a portfolio which i then could submit for grants which eventually would support my transition back to the city. I applied for a few different ones and 4 months after i started applying i received a letter informing me that i was awarded with one of the grants. At the time i received the grant i had been struggling financially to continue painting. Many times having enough supplies to start a painting not yet knowing where the supplies was going to come from that would allow me to finish the work. I had about one tube of paint worth left of money when the grant arrived. The grant would afford me to make the transition back to the city and also it looked great on my resume. My ‘’value’’ as an artist had just gone up. Based solely on money. What did this ‘’value’’ mean. It meant i was allowed a little more freedom in what i actually painted. No more painting for ‘’the man’’. At least this is what it meant for me. I remember I actually felt different. I actually felt as though i had more freedom. I had more control over what i was to paint, more power. All because my bank account had increased exponentially. The experience of this new feeling of liberation based entirely on money reveals the ‘’hold’’ money had already taken upon my expression as an artist, and within it all, an interesting equation was becoming evident. Money=Freedom.

It was interesting to observe once again how the money was absolutely transforming my paintings. Just as easily as having no money guided the development of my work. So did having allot of money. I could now afford a huge supply of materials and buy what normally i would leave in the store due to its price. This Sudden flood of money provided me with stability. It provided me with time and resources to explore the practice of painting. I observed as my paintings became more vibrant with color. As they became larger. Where you could see that i was actually able to breathe while i painted, painting without the fear of running out of money. This only lasted for a while. This Event once again Illustrating the extent of the power of money and the control money had upon my expression as an artist. I was a slave to money  less

My experience with how money affected me as an artist.

Money influenced me as an artist.
For some time, i did not realize to the actual extent i was influenced by money within my expression as an artist.   more...I believed that i was actually able to express myself free from the system, specifically here the money system.
However at this moment i look back at my experience as an artist and i see to what extent i was not free from the system, not free from the money system.
It affected me at every turn, every decision, every movement.
So let me look back at my development as an artist and explore the relationship/partnership i had with money and how money actually influenced me extensively as an artist in this world.
An artist of all occupations.
An artist, apparently free.
I choose to be an artist because i believed it was a free expression, because i believed that i would be free within this expression.
Or did i choose to be an artist because my fathers father did not have enough money for his son, my father,to get an education which in turn affected his income and therein influenced what type of education his children, myself included would have available. And thus i ‘’chose’’ to study art.

So given the income of my family perhaps it was more suitable for me to take a liking to drawing at a young age - besides we did not have boxes of toys - we did have some, yes, but not overwhelmingly so that the paper and crayons were always within reach. I started to get serious about being an artist when i was about 16 years old. I enjoyed sports also but found myself many days after school sitting in my room drawing for hours. It was a cheap hobby. Paper and pencils and i was set. Paper and pencil still now 10 years later being the foundational application of my artistic practice - drawing, why? Its inexpensive, even if i have little money i usually can afford a sketch book and some drawing supplies. I Went to art school for 4 years and would you know it, i opted for a drawing major instead of painting. Drawing was much less expensive.

I applied for and received student loans to pay for my education.Of course i could not afford to go to school outside the country - to study in the places where the masters i saw in the books worked and lived. However i was fortunate enough to actually be granted money from my government and even go to school. In fact, when i was in school, i was rich! I spent most of my money on art supplies of all kinds focusing as mentioned on drawing. You could stick a 5 foot piece of paper to the wall at less than half the price it would cost to hang a painting of the same size - of course you could sell it for less than half as much as well - that is if the people with the money liked it. FUCK THAT!!! I didn't feel like making pictures for money. Oh, and i never sold many of of those either.


I applied for money from my government so i could focus solely on study while in school. I thought i would have 4 years to really get this then after that it was on my own so i better take this opportunity and use it effectively. So this is what i did. I worked diligently, on the art that is, i didn't care to much about anything else outside my studio. I did not even realize that during this time i was so passionately studying art, looking at the great artists of the past, studying their work, looking in books, reading art theory about beauty and form and of course FREEDOM ,that the very essence of my/this pursuit was/has been compromised from the very beginning. I was attempting to understand freedom, freedom of expression, what did this mean, i studied art for 4 years in school than another 3 after, all of this missing the point that everything i ever created was not free, was not freedom of expression was not self, expression not by any stretch of the imagination. Every painting i ever created, had an interesting ingredient within it. I had an invisible partner collaborating with me, side by side, i agreed t  less

Drawings From South Africa Description

The South African drawings are a collection of drawings I completed while staying on the Desteni Ranch from October 2008 to march 2009
drawings range from life drawings   more...done from direct observation to imaginative works illustrating what revealed within my understanding of life while staying on the Desteni Ranch
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is laughter real or just a program

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The Soul construct within them, as the ‘Soul' which is placed in their solar plexus is from which their ‘Book of Life' is written and filed in the Akashic Records in the dimensions. Human beings' lives,   more...through the reincarnation process/system never differ from one life to the next, the essence of ‘who they are' within the system remain the same and therefore they may be placed in different countries with different beings surrounding them as they reincarnate from one life to the next, yet, the experiences of themselves as ‘who they are' within the system remain exactly the same. Meaning that they'll have the exact same inner conflicts, the exact same problems and worries and concerns, their thought construct within them remain the same etc. This ‘who they are' within the system is referred to as their: Structural resonance.
1. The structural resonance was developed and designed within human beings as ‘who they really are' within the system to maintain a form of stabilization within the entire trinity enslavement and control system of existence. This design and development of the structural resonance occurred as follows:
Way in the beginning of ‘earth time' when the Annunaki, the main ‘players' being Marduk, Anu, Enki and Enlil, prepared for the initialization of their creation as the entire trinity enslavement and control system, they had everything prepared. They had ‘taken over existence' and had most beings in existence captured as their slaves to power their entire trinity enslavement and control system creation. The physical bodies with the mind consciousness systems within them were already placed on earth with the Atlanteans split within them into two ‘parts'. One ‘part' unconscious within the physical body to ‘power' the mind consciousness system and the other ‘part' imprisoned dimensionally, yet still ‘attached' to the other ‘part' in the physical body – left there with no purpose whatsoever, but to remain there and assist with the powering of the mind consciousness system within the physical body.
The White Light gridline structure was placed on earth interdimensionally, in the 3D-dimensional existence which I spoke of earlier, the 3D X-ray dimensional existence.
The White Light gridline structure was locked into the human beings' Soul construct system within them and the mind consciousness system within them. All this already prepared. Some of the Annunaki's slaves were placed on earth as human beings infused and imprisoned within the human physical bodies to power and become the pre-programmed mind consciousness systems within them.
The other captured slaves were placed in the dimensions to be designed in becoming Masters/Angels/Gods/Goddesses/Guides/Ascended Masters which was done to basically entertain humanity with beliefs and hope of there being a higher power/source which exist within existence. Or to stand in charge of the White Light construct/Reincarnation process/Channelings as Gatekeepers/Protectors of the entire trinity enslavement and control system etc. Or they were placed as Demons to generate fear within humanity and also dimensional beings, Demons imprisoned in a dimension parallel to earth's dimension within their own personal hell. Dividing the dimensions into different levels to incorporate the ‘ascension process/belief' both here on earth and in the dimensions: Supporting and assisting in giving dimensional beings and humanity a purpose or reason for their existence. Which was just another method used to keep the Annunaki's slaves as all beings who were placed either on earth or in the dimensions within the entire trinity enslavement and control system, busy!
Thus, with everything prepared, Anu, Enki, Enlil and Marduk started the initialization of their entire trinity enslavement and control system the moment they were satisfied that all the beings they had captured as slaves to power their creation, were effectively and specifically placed. This being the design of the s  less

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This is the second musicvideo that we have made

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