Footage Compilation of Desteni Farm and Music with Baru, One of the many dogs at Desteni Farm

Video&Music Compilation by Jorn Hardus
Photography: Marlen Vargas

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self forgiveness as real change - how it can work trough the programs of self-dishonesty to support develop self-honesty

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I never said it will be easy
to give up a world that is sleazy

I never said it will be quick
to give up a mind that is sick

I never said it will be light
that is the source of inner sight

I never said that   more...who I am
was the actual Divine Man

I never said that Heaven
is like a local 7/11

I never said that Life was a game
although every day remain the same

I never said that the Earth is yours
It was always Life's Source

I never said that you were created
only that your life is fated

I never said Life has a Goal
or that it must be about the Soul

I never said Love was the oddity
that must become a commercial prodigy

I never said I will be a saviour
I said love your neighbour

I said I am always Here
but you still fear and fear

I never said that you are special
but you are trapped in your vessel

I never said there will be an answer
but only that you must be Life's Dancer

I never said I would move mountains
but that Life is an Inner Fountain

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Title:

Soundless

Lyrics:

Sound is what EYE Found
Words that forever Bound
Fear that SUDDENLY HOUND
A Sound EVER VIBRATING
setting in Motion all Hating
As EYE wish for Love
and look for help from above   more...
Words turn in my MIND
Soundless to all Ears
Words as Thoughts
Only I can Hear
Secrets of my fears
Turning into Secrets
of my Lusts and Musts
Then EYE hear Some-one Speak
And EYE Become all Weak
And My Words Sound Empty
As I pretend Love Aplenty
But Inside my Mind
EYE am a Person of Another Kind
Hiding Even from Myself
Even before the age of Twelve
Who will I Be when the TRUTH is Known
And in a Breath my Cover is Blown
My Whole Life was fake
and spend in fears’ Sake
Even calling this Life a Game
Will never hide the Shame
Will EYE ever be able to Forgive Myself
Will EYE ever be able to forgive myself
TILL Then I Remain forever Soundless

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Introducing Desteni

First I believed in fairies
Then it was about Santa and Cherries
The Years moved on and on
From Weener to Teener
I could not get any Greener


Chorus:
I am a Fool in Paradise
With Dreams that Terrorise
I am a Fool   more...in Paradise
With Worry I will Jepardise
My Place in the Next Paradise
A Place only fit for the Wise
I am a Fool in Paradise




When my Heart Beat into Love
I soon believed in Marriage
And the Years moved on and on
Marriage lost its Fluff
And Sex became Fuck and Stuff




Chorus
(I am a Fool in Paradise...)




I became Bolder and Older
And needed a New Shoulder
And Years moved on and on
I moved from Jesus and Angels
To Where Death became a Real Danger


Chorus
(I am a Fool in Paradise...)




Then Wrinkles start Tickles
And Shakes took the Cake
The Years stopped moving on
I was nearly Gone
Still I miss where Life was from


Chorus
(I am a Fool in Paradise...)


Bernard

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Continuing with exploration of self assistance through self recording.

Recording myself without any preparation to assist myself in self honesty.

I am DIVINE



Everything is FINE
I am Divine
I need no SPINE
LIFE is a Production LINE
MY LIFE IS MINE
MY MEDITATION IS SUBLIME
I am The Master of Time
There is Really no GRIME
LIFE will Refine
There is Really no   more...SIN
So Says Daniel Quinn
The Body is just a TIN
That is the Spin
The Divine is the Jinn
Where we have all been
It is all about the UNSEEN
Lets not walk as a team
We are already FREE
Please dont see
Please dont see
Its all in the letter G
Just Be Just Be
Pain is only surreal
It is The Divine Seal
Without any appeal
The Body is ILLUSION
The MIND is the Fusion
But Death is the Door
That will settle this Score
and show what life is for
We have been fooled
Just like at School
Now the Physical will Reveal
What we Refuse to feel
and like a lemon will peel
to Show the Real Deal
We are not Divine We are Intoxicated by Wine
Like addicts without a Spine
We keep saying all is Fine
And we dont give a Dime
As long as we are not the Slime
at the bottom of the PIT of TIME
Wake Up It is the Shake Up
Take Responsibility with agility
Equal we must Be ONE
All that is under the SUN
Hear what is Here
Hear what is Here
TILL The End of all Fear


Bernard

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Abuse of Life by the Human spieces
music: Jorn Hardus
song used: micheal Jackson Earth Song.
discussions at:
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movie relevant to this not so often shown side of the human kind   more...is Earthlings:
http://video.google.com/googleplayer.swf?docid=6361872964130308142&hl=en&fs=true" style="width:400px;height:326px" allowFullScreen="true
Self Forgiveness on Massacre
I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself to seperate myself from the abuser
I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself to seperate myself from the abused, not realising that they are the manifested consequence of the self accepted and allowed enslavement and abuse of life by all.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to submit to feelings of regret when being confronted with images of abuse and torture, not realising I have a definition of myself that is apparently more or better then what is seen and manifested as consequence of all beings equally.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge torture and abuse of animals as seperate from me, not realising that I am equally responsible for abuse as the abuser
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reject and deny what has manifested as the physical, not realising that this is manifested consequence of the self accepted and allowed human nature.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel worthless, not realising that i am reacting from a self defined point of view comparing myself to what i see and supporting the torture and abuse.
I forgive myself for not allowing myself to embrace myself and confront my self defined existence that i am reacting from and creating opinions with.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deceiving myself to think and believe that what i experience as thoughts feelings and emotions has anything to do with the physical here
I return here as breath as life
I Stop myself as selfdefinition
I Stop myself as an opinion
I Stop myself as thoughts, feelings and emotions
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my rat cleans my teeth

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Positive Thinking - is to defend a lie

Positive Thinking - is to hide

Manipulating so that we can believe that all is on our side

Positive thinking - is spite

Towards ALL life

We seek comfort and salvation
  more...
Because we fear the desolation

Instead of standing as Solution

to survival and starvation

we defend and justify

ALL the LIES

To live in piece

with positive thinking

blinding our eyes
Wake up!
Stand up
Stop
Wake up
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http://desteni.co.za I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I require and need another separate from me to fulfill and complete me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself   more...to accept my self and incomplete and unfulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate me from myself as another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to seek and search for love in another from who and which I have separated me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘love'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘relationship'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require another to be completed and fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require another separate from me to be loved and to experience love.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to consider the words ‘falling in love' – only noticing and considering the word love in the equation and not the word ‘fall'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to dream and wish and hope and desire to be ‘whisked' and wiped off my feet by an eligible attractive man or attractive beautiful woman of which I pictured in my mind as being: The One.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to condition and conform to society by desiring wanting and needing a must-have relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to influence and change myself to attract a hopeful possible partner.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that ‘knees going weak' and ‘butterflies in the stomach' are actually experiences of me instead of realising they are manifestations of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually literally ‘buy into' the ludicrousness of the fact that love actually exists.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that love and relationship is the trap of this world to remain pre-occupied in ‘my own world' instead of opening my eyes and ears to see and hear what's really going on in this world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘fall' into the trap of the mind as love and relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define love and sex under the category of the manifestation of a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become blind and deaf by the overwhelming experiences of feelings and emotions within a relationship and closed myself off and separated myself from the rest of the world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use a relationship as an escape from the world to not have to face the world I exist in and experience myself within.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I will ‘find' and ‘discover' myself within a relationship with another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that emotions and feelings for another separate from me are actually experiences of me as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to desire, want and need a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to merely accept and allow emotions and feelings for another separate from me – believing such emotional and feeling experiences to be ‘normal' and ‘okay' because everyone else is also experiencing them.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to enjoy ‘being loved' by another – instead of me accepting joy as me as the expression of me as self love.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to love myself and because of this – I went on a journey to find, search and seek love elsewhere.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that by me wanting, desiring, wishing and needing a relationship – I was actually asking for a relationship with me.

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A tribute to Freddie Mercury

This is the SOLUTION of WRITING YOURSELF to freedom. And I am here to give perspective of how writing yourself, assist and support you within your individual process of realizing self through self insight   more..., self observation.
And in that, in moments of self realization, and self insight, setting your free, as the purity of expression in innocence of life as who you are.
Lets take a look at how the mind works. First, the mind stores memories. What are memories? Memories are recordings of moments of experiences that has occurred in the past......................  less

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that within manifesting relationships ‘towards’ that which exists within this world as all that exists within this world, I manifest a ‘network’   more...of ‘connectivity’ – being connected to all that exists, manifesting relationship ties and lines to grasp and hold onto the defined existence of me as the mind to ensure I am able to through this, constantly and continuously validate, justify and excuse the existence of me as a mind, existing as a pictured-thought within a pictured-system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me and exist within relationships towards all that exist within and as this world, and within this, accepting and allowing me to define me ‘through’ that which exist within this world as all that exist within this world – defining me according to the reflection of me as this world, this reality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I have accepted and allowed myself to be even ‘less than’ a thought, by defining me and existing as a reflection of the thought I have become – because I am accepting and allowing the reflection of me as and of this world to control and influence and direct me, which is why the thoughts in my mind seems ‘more than me’, because I am and have accepted me to be, less than a thought – by being and existing as but a mere reflection…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the manifested reflection of me as this world, this reality, which I see with my human physical eyes through the mind, to control, influence and direct me, and by accepting and allowing this – I become the reflection that I am accepting and allowing to control, influence and direct me – existing within the exact state as the state of the world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that all I have become is but a reflection, ‘less than’ a thought existent within my mind, because I have defined me, formed me, designed me, shaped me and created me according to the reflection of me I see, interpret and perceive with my human physical eyes through the mind as according to the reflection of me as this world as all and everything and everyone that exists within and as it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave me to the word ‘EYE’ which sounds like I – existing as the EYE of consciousness of mind, me and my world defined through that which I see with my human physical eyes, creating and designing me and the definition of me based on what the EYE of consciousness of mind see within and as and through which I have accepted and allowed me to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the mind through the definition of me as EYE as being bound to the eternal enslavement on the cross-point placement allocation within the unified consciousness field grid-line of this world – as the allocation of me within and between all the relationship-ties connectivity towards this world, this reality and all and everything that exist within and as it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be bound to and enslaved to the manifested allocation of me within this world through the mind, within all the relationship ties I have stringed together within me through the mind, towards all and everything that exist within this world and the environment within which I experience myself within this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within relationships towards all and everything that exists within and as this world, to be connected to/towards all and everything that exists within this world, and within this, accepting and allowing me to exist within separation of me – because I am not living here, one and equal as all and everything that exist as me as life.

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Self forgiveness statements for 1.) FOREHEAD point and 2.) EYE points (continued)

B. Unconscious and Subconscious Mind Foundation manifestation Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and   more...allowed myself to define ‘who I am’ according to a separate manifested constructed system as the mind consciousness structural resonance system – designed and created by and through me through my accepted and allowed permission.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I give permission for my mind to exist and direct and control and influence and exist and live for and as me within and through and by my very participation within and as it.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that within this – I am responsible for all and everything of me, because I created and designed me through my accepted and allowed permission within participation of and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking self responsibility for all and everything of me as what I have become and defined me to be and existing as through the mind – because of shame of what others, including myself, may think/say/do if they as I were to know what I have accepted and allowed me to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing my own shame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing me by taking self responsibility for me, because I know that in taking self responsibility for me, for all and everything of me – I will have to stand and face all and everything of me as what I have accepted and allowed me to exist within and as = of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shape and form the definition of me according to, through and as the mind – utilizing pictures, memories, emotions and feelings as the building blocks which manifest the entirety of me as how I designed and created me of within and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the generators of consciousness systems of the mind as pictures, memories, emotions and feelings to which I have defined me, within which I participate through my accepted and allowed permission – fuelling generators of systems to exist for me, instead of me living here in self expression as self honesty in every moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuel the generators of the mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories and pictures to exist for me, to live for me = because I hide behind this within the fear and petrification of having to face me for what I have done and become and having to take self responsibility for all and everything of me as what I have accepted and allowed to exist, within and as through my accepted and allowed permission.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise, that by accepting and allowing the mind, the system to exist and live for me – I’m not here, I do not exist, it is the mind, the system that exists for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘see’ myself – not realising that in ‘seeing myself’ I must be looking ‘through something’ / ‘towards something’ / ‘at something’, which indicate separation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in the very act of ‘seeing myself’, I separate me from me, because it is not about ‘seeing myself’ – it is about me ‘being me here and trusting me to live me in self honesty here – no matter what’. Seeing self is a necessity of the mind to validate and confirm its own existence – that’s why mirrors exist. The mind wanting to see its own reflection to ensure it still exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to how I ‘see me’ / ‘look at me’ / ‘interpret me’ / ‘perceive me’ through the mind of thoughts, feelings, emotions and memories.

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I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that anything I experience that generate a reaction within me that exist separate from me – is not real – because it exist in separation – it   more...is not me – thus I am not actually experiencing me as who I am – but the illusion of me that exist in separation.

I forgive myself that I have allowed ‘back doors’ to exist within me – as a possible and probable escape route which consist of blame, denial, judgment, justification and fear as excuses to not have to face directly what I have accepted and allowed myself to become and thus have accepted and allowed myself to manifest as the experience of myself along with the rest of the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am okay, that I am normal and that I am accepted and appreciated by the rest of the world, society and my very own family if everything in my world is apparently ‘in order’.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually believe and ‘buy into’ and ‘fall for’ the idea, perception and belief that a separate manifested source will come and save, rescue and help this world, me and the rest of humanity such as gods and dimensional beings of religious and spiritual movements – instead of me realising and trusting my own self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the very nature of what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as this mind consciousness structural resonance system within and as me. Instead of living the very nature of who I am as life - as the living expressive example of nature of the world that is of life within and as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take nature for granted – the very nature as the living expressive example of life as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be directed, controlled, influenced, disempowered and manipulated by the mind – the very manifestation that exist within me that I have accepted and allowed myself to become – the world an example of what exist within me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require this programmed mind consciousness system – to live – because I have allowed and accepted myself to be programmed to believe that I am this mind consciousness system within me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed – for eons of time – to not stand up – I accepted and allowed enslavement of me, within me and thus accepted and allowed enslavement of others, within themselves – thus for eons of time – all of existence and me included have accepted and allowed ourselves to be enslaved – by the mind – through our own acceptances and allowances of the existence of the mind – thus I am individually responsible for all that exist and for all I have become as all of existence as one.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am self responsible.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become fearful, uncertain, unresponsive, anxious and unwilling to have to take self responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed within me, thus within others and for what has manifested and become of this world and humanity as me – because of shame, remorse, regret, sorrow, anger and hatred of myself for what I have accepted and allowed to be done unto me – what I have accepted and allowed to be done unto myself: Because I didn’t stand up in moments when I could.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to believe that thinking is normal, ordinary and acceptable and allowed because it’s who I am and what I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to programmed to believe that headaches are headaches and of no meaning or worth – instead of realising that headaches are of the human physical body – assisting and supporting me in statin  less

Another practical example of how you’re able to assist and support you with regards to identifying self judgments within and as you and then from there to have a look at to what and who, when and where   more...you’ve accepted and allowed you to compare yourself towards, which manifested such judgments towards you – is standing naked in front of a mirror and look yourself straight in the eyes – and seeing what thoughts, memories, pictures, ideas and reactions comes up within and as you, and from here – identify from what accepted and allowed comparisons such judgments was derived.

B.- Unconscious and Subconscious Mind Foundation manifestation Self Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am the Eye, the ‘I’ of consciousness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to give permission to the ‘creators’ of this mind system to program me to believe and perceive that I am the Eye, the ‘I’ of consciousness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to give my power away through giving my permission to the ‘creators’ of this mind system to program me to believe and perceive that I am the Eye, the ‘I’ of consciousness.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become a mind system and accept myself as a mind system and believe myself to be a mind system and allowed myself to be programmed as a mind system instead of the expression of life as who I am as the origin of who I am as the living word of oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise, to live, to see, to honor, to recognize, to be aware, to stand as who I am as ‘I am’ of life of oneness and equality as the living word.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I am the programmed language of systems as thoughts, feelings and emotions – in allowing and accepting myself to become the ‘I of Consciousness’ / the ‘I of the Systems’.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am the slave to systems and the programs that run within me as my thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘fall’ in the traps of consciousness programmed games such as ‘enlightenment’, ‘attainment’ and ‘becoming’.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to sacrifice me as who I really am as life by allowing and accepting myself to become this programmed system within me as the mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions as that which enslaves and controls me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to live by the following words of system programming: “Here I am systems, your servant, take me, I am sacrificing myself for your existence. You are my ‘God’ and I am your slave. I give you permission to continue the enslavement and control you stand for and as” - because I have allowed myself to participate in the mind and be of the mind – believing such an existence and experience of myself to actually be ‘who I am’.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be programmable.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be programmed.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to programmable and programmed by words and sound frequencies.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am only programmable and able to be programmed by words and sound frequencies if I am separate from the programmers as well as sound frequencies and words.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be and stand separate from the mind – the mind the very manifestation within and as me as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become – which I have accepted and allowed to exist within me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to give my power away through accepting and allowing separate manifestations outside of me to influence, direct and control me.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that separate manifestations outside of me only has the ability to direct, control and  less