Just how I feel lately.

this is a little video I made about my depression, I wrote an email to a friend and now this email is in the video...
I think it's pretty good..
Music: Hinder - lips of an angel
pics: some from the internet...   more...others taken by myself while I was at the river others from a friend of mine....  less

people who have no understanding of psychology can really mess up other people's lives

Spoken Words series by David Proper. In this installment, David reads his poem entitled "Mirrors and Lights".

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Tears Falling From Your Eyes by Joe Fielding 10-10-08©

Ew, Ware do you hide your heart?
EW, Ew, Ware do you hide your heart?
Inside, when you don't want no one to see, you cry.
When every things got   more...you down.

There's nothing for them to see.
Just tears falling from your eyes.
Just the same mine.

What makes you cry so hard?
Did some one die?
Did some one treat you bad?
Did they?

Break your heart in pieces.
On the floor.
And no one stopped to help you.
No more.

There's nothing for them to see.
Just tears falling from your eyes.
Just the same mine.

And there was one time.
That I cradled your head.
And asked you what was wrong.
But you left.

You went home in black cloud.
Sitting on your bed.
Crying your eye's out.
There’s nothing I can do, ya.

There's nothing for them to see.
Just tears falling from your eyes.
Just the same mine.


(Solo)

There's nothing for them to see.
Just tears falling from your eyes.
Just the same mine.

And that was the end of my life.
Well I might rephrase that.
It's the end of are love.
That I let escape.

Threw the drift wood in the water.
Running down the stream.
Of my tears.

There's nothing for them to see.
Just tears falling from your eyes.
Just the same mine.X2  less

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I New You Were Gone by Joe Fielding 09-07-08©

There's a whistle in my ears.
As my car speeds threw its gears.
Across the country side I fly.
There's a cloud in the sky, high.

That makes me want to cry.
  more...Missing you so deeply.
Breaks my heart completely.
Down, Down.

Then I wonder ware you are.
Would you want to be right hear?
In my car, in my heart.
Could I hold you again?

There's a time, when I spent, too much time alone.
There's a time that I new, we had it all figured out.
I'd look into your eyes and new.
Your heart was mine.

We walked hand in hand.
Across the summer time bridge.
Watching the eagles fly high.
As the ducks took the bread from are hands.

We would hold each other tight, kissing the time that we had.
There's a whistle in my ears.
As my car speeds threw its gears.
Like the memories gone a stray.
There we would stand, on the edge of love's hand.

As time grew further away.
I new you were gone.
That’s when I would say, I lost every thing.
There's a whistle in my ears.

As my car speeds threw it's gears.
Across the country side I fly.
There’s a cloud in the sky, high.
That makes me want to cry.

My eyes are gushing tears.
No hugs for my pain, hear.
I drive alone in the rain.
As I think of you, running threw my brain.X2  less

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last 10 minutes of the film "SubUrbia"

directed by Richard Linklater





The limo pulls off and it passes Tim who just entered the parking
lot.


BUFF
(to Tim)
Hey, man.


TIM
Hey.


Tim walks over to Jeff   more...and cracks open a new beer.


JEFF
They let you out?


TIM
Yeah, of course they let me out. Chickenshits. I gotta pay some
class C misdemeanor ticket. So did I call it or did I call it?
She spent the night, didn't she? Hm? Oh, that sucks for you, pal.
Oh, shit.


JEFF
You lied to me.


TIM
You want to know what your problem is, Jeff? You want to believe
so bad, you'll buy anything. It's true. Look at you. You're
gullible and you're gutless.


JEFF
No, no. That's not the way it is at all. No, I stayed up all
night trying to figure out how to protect my best friend. Wait,
yeah, no, I was trying to come up with some lie so that you
wouldn't have to go to jail for the rest of your life.


TIM
Wow. You did that for me?


JEFF
Yes.


TIM
Well, you know, all I can say is, you're a fucking fool.


JEFF
Why? Because I give a shit?


TIM
Oh, shit.


JEFF
Because I care, I'm a fucking fool?


TIM
Oh, Jeff, give me a break. You didn't even have the guts to go
look in the van, did you?


JEFF
Oh no, no. You know what? Fuck that. No, you lied to me. You lied
to me because you're gutless. You're a gutless, drunken looser.


TIM
I'm a loser. And I'm drunk. But I'm not gutless.


JEFF
You know, and what are you doing here in the first place, man?
He's just gonna call the cops again.


TIM
Good, good. I, I hope he does.


JEFF
The sun hasn't even come up yet and you're drinking.


TIM
Hey, you saw that brown bitch point a gun at me last night, man.
Did you think she was gonna use it?


JEFF
I don't know.


TIM
You don't know?


JEFF
No.


TIM
Come on. You don't think that after they called the cops on me,
her and Mohammed had a nice laugh?


JEFF
No.


Tim pulls a gun out of his pants and loads it.


TIM
No? Well, I disagree. I think they did. I think they probably
went home last night and, you know, kicked off their sandals and
had a nice laugh about the drunk on the corner, you know? Makes
me sick.


JEFF
What are, what are you doing? Look, Tim, just go home. Alright.
Go home and sleep it off.


TIM
Well, what am I supposed to sleep off? My life? You know, I'm
supposed to go home and go to sleep and when I wake up, what'll I
be, Jeff? A pilot? Maybe a Super Bowl quarterback or, no, maybe a
fucking rock star. Right? I don't think so, man.


JEFF
Just go home, alright?


TIM
This is my home.


JEFF
Why, why did you start this in the first place, man? They never
hurt you.


TIM
They never hurt me? They hurt me every day with their attitude.
You know, like they even have a right. Who the fuck do they think
they are? Let me tell you something, I was born here. Alright?
I'm an American. And I'm owed something. Look, they took it from
me.


JEFF
They're just people. Alright? They got feelings, you know?


TIM
What about my feelings? What about my fucking feelings? These
assholes, they come over here, they know all the answers, right?
Well, they don't know shit.


JEFF
Will you just put the gun down?


TIM
No.


JEFF
Just put it down.


Nazeer walks out of the store.


NAZEER
What is this... now , huh?


Jeff starts to walk towards Nazeer.


TIM
Jeff, stay there.


JEFF
He's got a gun. He's got a gun.


TIM
Well, then, there now, why don't you go inside and call the cops
and I'll come in there and blow your fucking brains out.


NAZEER
Why should I call the police, huh? They don't so any good.


TIM
Well, you gotta call your wife then, you know, 'cause she kind of
handles these heavy matters anyway, right?
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Don't give up is sang by Shannon Noll and Natalie Bassingthwaighte, Australian singers. Thanks so much for watching! Take care (((hugs))) Kylie XXIn this proud land we grew up strong we were wanted   more...all along
I was taught to fight taught to win I never thought I could fail
No fight left or so it seems I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
I've changed my face I've changed my name but no one wants you when you lose

Don't give up cause you have friends don't give up you're not beaten yet
Don't give up I know you can make it good

Though I saw it all around I never thought that I could be affected
I thought that we would be the last to go it is so strange the way things turn

Don't give up you still have us
Don't give up we don't need much of anything
Don't give up cause somewhere there's a place there's a place where we belong

Got to walk out of here I can't take anymore
I'm gonna stand on that bridge keep my eyes down below
Whatever may come and whatever may go
That river's flowing that river's flowing
Moved on to another town tried hard to settle down
For every job so many men so many men no one needs

Don't give up cause you have friends don't give up you're not the only one
Don't give up no reason to be ashamed don't give up you still have us
Don't give up now we're proud of who you are
Don't give up you know it's never been easy
Don't give up cause I believe there's a place there's a place where we belong  less

It's X-mas day (in the video) I just took my time uploading this. This is serious people

<b>Read Description for a link to part 1 of this documentary</b>
Are we winning the wars officials say we must? Wars against cancer, AIDS and terrorism?

Hollywood films and health officials   more...herald happy endings, but family and friends everywhere are ill and getting sicker, fatter, more depressed, and broke popping pills and paying medical bills.
<a href="http://www.livevideo.com/video/ConspiracyCentral/EE0B2E89B5EE41F48A01DB0964BD3DE6/in-lies-we-trust-len-horowi.aspx">Click Here for part 1</a>


Now officials urge you to prepare for the worst bioterrorist attacks in history (aside from nuclear explosions, and escalating "natural" disasters).

This controversial documentary produced by "World Leading Intellectual" and drug cartel critic, Sir Leonard George Horowitz, exposes officials, corporations, and American intelligence agencies for historic devil-doing.

This unique film takes you inside the policies, politics, and propaganda of genocide with a twist of humor. Horowitz exposes unprecedented fraud, malfeasance, and murder as a clear and present danger to you and your loved ones.

In Lies We Trust examines the CIA's direction of Hollywood, and modern medicine, and will have you rethinking their impacts on the way you think about current events, increasing threats of outbreaks, cancer, and AIDS.

Where do you suppose skyrocketing rates of these and other modern plagues came from?

This award-winning doctor advances compelling analyses of documents explaining our modern maladies as
"socio-political impositions" not made in Heaven.

In Lies We Trust examines the military-medical-petrochemical-pharmaceu tical profiteers behind medical maddness; their political prostitutes, and shoddy scientists.

Stunning evidence including secreted interviews explains why millions of innocent and gullible people worldwide have been killed, and billions more are now being frightened into drug addictions, side-effects, profitable illnesses, and premature death.

Watch In Lies We Trust: The CIA, Hollywood & Bioterrorism to learn why your life is entrusted to Manchurian candidates who don't even know how and why they aim to kill you.

Horowitz brilliantly critiques the government's new 24-hour television network and feature documentary, History of Bioterrorism, which is now broadcasting daily over the Dish Network.

September is "National Preparedness Month." Officials say you must prepare for the worst bioterrorist attacks, yet they use fear and gross inaccuracies (propaganda) examined by Horowitz for your edutainment and informed choice.

Dr. Horowitz generously donated this life-saving DVD for widespread free public distribution without copyright restrictions. View every part of this production in the low resolution Quicktime files below, or order your high resolution DVD today.

Make copies and share these DVDs and website liberally. Every American should watch this film to prepare for forced injections, mass quarantines, and
official predictions of disasters.

Your generous donation(s) for this monumental production, in support of more works like it, are requested and greatly appreciated.

Call 1-888-508-4787 to make your contribution and order your free copies of In Lies We Trust available in late September. Or simply secure it online at www.healthyworldstore.com.  less

<b>Read Description for a link to part 8</b>
Are we winning the wars officials say we must? Wars against cancer, AIDS and terrorism?

Hollywood films and health officials herald happy endings,   more...but family and friends everywhere are ill and getting sicker, fatter, more depressed, and broke popping pills and paying medical bills.
<a href="http://www.livevideo.com/video/ConspiracyCentral/605A91A0E2D54DA4A4920417E4A44CA2/in-lies-we-trust-len-horowi.aspx">Click Here for part 8</a>


Now officials urge you to prepare for the worst bioterrorist attacks in history (aside from nuclear explosions, and escalating "natural" disasters).

This controversial documentary produced by "World Leading Intellectual" and drug cartel critic, Sir Leonard George Horowitz, exposes officials, corporations, and American intelligence agencies for historic devil-doing.

This unique film takes you inside the policies, politics, and propaganda of genocide with a twist of humor. Horowitz exposes unprecedented fraud, malfeasance, and murder as a clear and present danger to you and your loved ones.

In Lies We Trust examines the CIA's direction of Hollywood, and modern medicine, and will have you rethinking their impacts on the way you think about current events, increasing threats of outbreaks, cancer, and AIDS.

Where do you suppose skyrocketing rates of these and other modern plagues came from?

This award-winning doctor advances compelling analyses of documents explaining our modern maladies as
"socio-political impositions" not made in Heaven.

In Lies We Trust examines the military-medical-petrochemical-pharmaceu tical profiteers behind medical maddness; their political prostitutes, and shoddy scientists.

Stunning evidence including secreted interviews explains why millions of innocent and gullible people worldwide have been killed, and billions more are now being frightened into drug addictions, side-effects, profitable illnesses, and premature death.

Watch In Lies We Trust: The CIA, Hollywood & Bioterrorism to learn why your life is entrusted to Manchurian candidates who don't even know how and why they aim to kill you.

Horowitz brilliantly critiques the government's new 24-hour television network and feature documentary, History of Bioterrorism, which is now broadcasting daily over the Dish Network.

September is "National Preparedness Month." Officials say you must prepare for the worst bioterrorist attacks, yet they use fear and gross inaccuracies (propaganda) examined by Horowitz for your edutainment and informed choice.

Dr. Horowitz generously donated this life-saving DVD for widespread free public distribution without copyright restrictions. View every part of this production in the low resolution Quicktime files below, or order your high resolution DVD today.

Make copies and share these DVDs and website liberally. Every American should watch this film to prepare for forced injections, mass quarantines, and
official predictions of disasters.

Your generous donation(s) for this monumental production, in support of more works like it, are requested and greatly appreciated.

Call 1-888-508-4787 to make your contribution and order your free copies of In Lies We Trust available in late September. Or simply secure it online at www.healthyworldstore.com.  less

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This is a video about Vincent Van Gogh and depression?After much careful research it has been discovered that the artist Vincent Van Gogh had many relatives.

Among them were:
His obnoxious brother...............................Please   more...Gogh
His dizzy aunt .....................................Verti Gogh
The brother who ate prunes..........................Gotta Gogh
The brother who worked at a convenience store.......Stopn Gogh
The grandfather from Yugoslavia.....................U Gogh
The brother who bleached his clothes white..........Hue Gogh
The cousin from Illinois............................Chica Gogh
His magician uncle..................................Wherediddy Gogh
His Mexican cousin..................................Amee Gogh
The Mexican cousin's American half brother..........Grin Gogh
The nephew who drove a stage coach..................Wellsfar Gogh
The constipated uncle...............................Cant Gogh
The ballroom dancing aunt...........................Tan Gogh
The bird lover uncle................................Flamin Gogh
His nephew psychoanalyst............................E Gogh
The fruit loving cousin.............................Man Gogh
An aunt who taught positive thinking................Wayto Gogh
The little bouncy nephew............................Poe Gogh
A sister who loved disco............................Go Gogh
His Italian uncle...................................Day Gogh
And his niece who travels the country in a van......Winnie Bay Gogh  less

I hate my life.

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