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| | rando jawn jawning me on skype | | | Wednesday, July 9, 2008 (10:24 PM)
(I'm feeling empty) | | some dude just messaged me randomly, so rather than just blocking i messed around...then blocked ;) lol
[4:16:37 PM] el.bassuony says: i am x,... magice
[4:17:44 PM] X says: i am el.bassuony,.... magice
[4:20:57 PM] el.bassuony says: what is your name
[4:21:49 PM] el.bassuony says: my name AHMED
[4:24:03 PM] X says: my name is Zendo
[4:24:08 PM] X says: nice to meet u ahmed
[4:25:17 PM] el.bassuony says: you are american
[4:28:02 PM] el.bassuony says: how are you Zendo
[4:28:50 PM] X says: i am american, u are not?
and im pretty good i just drank an entire bottle of everclear, how are u ahmed?
[4:29:45 PM] el.bassuony says: i am egiptain
[4:31:38 PM] el.bassuony says: can you speake arabice
[4:32:45 PM] X says: really? cool
if u ever in america u should look me up! Zendo Chrisheno - my rents had a sense of humor when they named me i know
now i cant, i wish i did tho - sounds like a cool glass of milk in a well heated roonm
[4:32:48 PM] X says: room*
[4:34:07 PM] el.bassuony says: your age
[4:35:14 PM] el.bassuony says: I want see your picture
[4:36:35 PM] X says: i am 23 years old, why do u need picture, u dont like me :(
[4:37:13 PM] el.bassuony says: why not?
[4:37:53 PM] el.bassuony says: and i am 22 years old
[4:38:03 PM] X says: i just dont think you like me :(
[4:38:07 PM] X says: do u like me?
[4:39:12 PM] el.bassuony says: yes without see your picture
[4:39:51 PM] X says: my picture is in the corner tho
[4:41:05 PM] el.bassuony says: i want know your e.mail
[4:42:25 PM] X says: i cant send u my picture bc im ashamed of my horrible burn scars i recieved in the great war of 95, u understand?
[4:42:57 PM] el.bassuony says: you are see your picture
[4:43:34 PM] X says: my email is zendogettingbusywithduhmilkman@hotmail.com
ya its a long email - twas a joke
[4:43:44 PM] X says: i am i see my picture :(
[4:46:06 PM] el.bassuony says: my email is ahmed_el_687@hotmail.com
[4:47:28 PM] X says: u send me dirty photograph?
[4:47:42 PM] el.bassuony says: and my phone 0126876850
[4:47:56 PM] X says: i call for good time?
[4:48:49 PM] el.bassuony says: would you like dirty photograph?
[4:50:00 PM] X says: what would it be of?
[4:50:21 PM] el.bassuony says: what is your phone?
[4:51:35 PM] X says: 890 437 3454
i dont pay bills anymore tho so i might be cut off :(
would u have call 4 dirty talk?
[4:52:19 PM] el.bassuony says: send me any dirty photo
[4:52:35 PM] el.bassuony says: please
[4:53:37 PM] X says: what would i get for dirty picture?
i hope u find a 3rd arm sexy..most do so im not worried
[4:58:14 PM] el.bassuony says: can you open your hotmail
[4:59:07 PM] el.bassuony says: what your study
[4:59:57 PM] X says: why should i open my hotmail
[5:01:18 PM] el.bassuony says: because send me any photo
[5:02:18 PM] X says: how do i know u wont do bad things with it or touch yourself inappropriately
[5:03:36 PM] el.bassuony says: sorry i am not understad
[5:04:01 PM] X says: why do u want picture? for the sexual purpose?
[5:04:06 PM] el.bassuony says: what your study
[5:04:23 PM] X says: baking
[5:05:09 PM] el.bassuony says: you are like sexy?
[5:05:38 PM] el.bassuony says: i am like that
[5:06:05 PM] X says: you are sexy?
im so sexy when i play with my 3rd arm
[5:07:09 PM] el.bassuony says: yes i am very sexy
[5:07:44 PM] el.bassuony says: youhave big tits?
[5:09:22 PM] X says: people often say i look like i have 2 bottles of canned peaches under my shirt
[5:10:15 PM] el.bassuony says: youhave nice ASS?
[5:11:23 PM] X says: people often say it look like i have 2 nice hams shoved down the back of my pants, u find sex?
[5:12:16 PM] el.bassuony says: i have nice coak
[5:12:29 PM] X says: a nice coak?
[5:12:38 PM] X says: like the soda? coke?
[5:12:46 PM] el.bassuony says: yes,,,
[5:13:19 PM] X says: soda is 2 sugary for me
[5:13:40 PM] X says: now if u have a nice diet coke, im pleased
[5:15:09 PM] el.bassuony says: what you like from the person youmeet here?
[5:15:42 PM] X says: i like people who own dishwashers that ACTUALLY clean dishes, that impresses me
[5:15:46 PM] X says: show they high roller
[5:16:35 PM] el.bassuony says: youhave camera?
[5:16:55 PM] X says: i sing opera, and i hit my high note and the lense broke :(
[5:18:00 PM] el.bassuony says: why you not ask me?
[5:18:33 PM] el.bassuony says: for any thing
[5:18:43 PM] X says: i didnt know u offer
[5:19:26 PM] el.bassuony says: did you love?
[5:20:21 PM] X says: look i g2g, i got a date with a polar bear, later | | | 89 Views | 24  Thumbs Up | 13 Comments |  |
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| | M-aj-ICK | | | Thursday, July 3, 2008 (4:22 PM)
(I'm feeling cynical) | | Hello there! i AM X!
i like dressing up. i like drinking wine. i like watching people. i enjoy lonliness and being alone to a point. i enjoy my bed. i like romance. i like being in control. i like being submissive. i hate pity. i hate the small minded. i like music. i like reading poetry aloud, i would read stories more but my heart strays 3/4s of the way through. i like vodka, if i ever met you id probably suggest drinking this. i like to be intrigued, in fact i love that feeling. i like being quite boring. i like parisian prostitutes from the early 1900s, true ladies. i like tattoos. i like confusion. id like "what is love" by haddaway or "you spin me round" by dead or alive to play at my funeral. im not very affectionate unless i really like you. im very emotional at times. i like making up stories involving unicorns and robots. i LOVE the eighties matchbox b-line disaster. i love the idea of when i die, having my head cut off and frozen to be re-thawed and put on a robot body. i like being shallow. i like being deep. i like indulging in childish behaviors bc i hate the thot of getting old and losing touch with things i once loved JUST bc i grow a year older. i enjoy and collect handcuffs. i like shaking snow globes. i hate pomposity. i like being eccentric. i would enjoy having Seal sing "kiss from a rose" to me as i bled to death, sad but true. I hate how people are more than likely going to take that seriously because they dont understand my dark humor in life. i hate happy funshine. i love dancing. i enjoy night. i like things safe to a point. i like to take chances. i love it when guys can hold a basketball with one hand for some striking unforseen reason. i hate humanity. i despise my clumbsy nature. i hate that most often times people give a shit what others think. i love being disturbing or demented, its just in my nature to be that way. i enjoy the fact that im not in the least bit afraid of death. i love dipping pizza crust into a soft drink beverage. i have a small fascinatiion of 50s pin up girls, if i could be like that i would. i hate being judged unfairly. i love tank tops. im quite fond of energy drinks. i hate that i cant tell someone i love them without fully meaning it with my full heart, sometimes puts me in a spot. im not a fan of the fact that i get distracted easily. i absolutely adore bangles and chokers. i like making outrageous claims. i love the misfits. i like feeling extremely cold. i like it when people add me as a friend because we have something in common. its dull otherwise....
No-one really knows how X was spawned into the world, or from whence she crept, but the legends are legion. Some say shes some sort of blood thirsty monster forged by sadistic mad scientists from the spit of Wendy O. Williams of the Plasmatics, the tears of Helena Bonham Carter and needle plucked from Pinhead. Others say she rose from the depths of a nearby swamp on the outskirts of Magic Town
who really knows ;P
-X<3 | | | | 91 Views | 28 Thumbs Up | 16 Comments | |
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| | F-U Tornado - I still have my internets muahahaha | | | Saturday, June 21, 2008 (5:38 PM)
(I'm feeling bored) | | so apparently a tornado or something is really really really close to me lol...im not worried tho lol - cuz idk i havent really ever seen them come that close and when they do its usually not that bad...i mean i dont want to jinx myself but ya
it keeps like killing my power and connection - but i provailed via laptop
*shakes fist at nature* TAKE THAT!
i WAS in the dark for a bit so i like texted friends and junk
but like now im back muahahaha, actually im prolly going to kill my laptop for awhile to save battery power
...the rain went down a bit..but its like that eerie yellow color outside and the streets are flooding, i dont trust that shit for a sec lol
but ya im fully prepared to make a run for safety if it gets too close, so no worries - seriously lol
i MIGHT go play in the rain even, but prolly not lol...cuz its light now but like i said i dont trust it
plans 4 the evening - i plan on drinking and texting lol - so if ure lucky enough to have my number - woot woot
if u dont, dont ask lol
anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dreamcatcher rocks - there i said it
and with that, i log off my internets for awhile
good day good sirs and mams
-X
PS. im totes going to bitchslap dis tornado down with my gangsta thuggin mean muggin ;P
...or something like that
.................................ok im out! | | | | 69 Views | 16 Thumbs Up | 11 Comments | |
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| | zomg its x | | | Wednesday, June 18, 2008 (2:02 PM)
(I'm feeling contemplative) | | something was said to me yesterday in passing - and it just kind of reminded me of a grand scheme attitude that i dont understand and i need some making clear on lol
what im not understanding is how if someone doesnt like another person..they have to dislike everything the person does lol..and this isnt based off anything in drama news, but i think it kind of reflects with it as well as everything else in the grand scheme...but like, i never understand how some people can have a distaste for someone - but cant give them credit u know?
like ill be the 1st to admit - theres a few people i dont really like that much on this site and irl, it happens..thats life, not everyone can get along - but i would never hate on u for being u if i dislike u....if someone asked me why i dislike a person, id present facts as to why if i needed to..but i wouldnt just assume everything the person does is fuckwit lol...like there are plenty of people i dont see eye to eye with but i think some are amazing makers regardless...basically i dont understand how someone can go "oh fuck, i dont like u - ur an asshole" but like EVERYTHING they do is considered bad lol..i dont get that...cuz i dislike people but i wouldnt put everything they do down, i give credit when its due...and like if i see ur doing something that i find lame - even if you're a friend - if my opinion is asked, or its the right time, ill be the 1st person to tell u "hey this is stupid" bc im an actual friend, and i wont be anyones yes-man..thats stupid lol..a true friend values the others opinion
i also dont feel people should be offended if i dont agree with them or be bothered if i think something is lame either...cuz i do hella lame stuff lol...ive been an ass at times - but ill admit it, bc who cares if you're being lame if its what u want to do...it shouldnt matter who thinks its lame - besides everyone makes mistakes..and i dont let pride get in the way of me knowing something was a mistake
like - ill tell u if i think something is fail, whether you're my friend or not...but ill also tell u what i like about u, whether you're my friend or not...and i think im just honest sometimes..but i do apologize when im too harsh
and notice i said "honest" not "right"...im not right all the time, i know that - ive been wrong and i respect any opinion thats given to me..i might be passionate about my opinion, but i wont ever force my beliefs on u - u can know that as a friend
and on a side note - while im speaking about it - im throwing this in there. but if i have alot of good things to say about u...like princesserica for example...i think shes talented, pretty, hilarious etc etc...if i tell her that - she can know im not just telling her what she wants to hear, its what i actually believe...if i say you're funny alot - you can bank that i truly do think that about u, bc i would keep my mouth shut if i didnt think it was true, or if i didnt think it i might even be like "that joke blew - you're not funny" ...there are certain acceptions..but most things have give room
and thats another thing - if i like u, even if i love u, i dont believe everything u do has to be magic constantly...bc people arent like that lol...like i think that in myself...not everything i do is fabulous lol...like some things i say and do im like "x magic woooo" and others im like "x jeez" lol
basically, ive been the person that thinks in black and white before, but along the way i realized there IS a grey area...and so ive been trying to go with that
and like in accordance with what i said...u can read all that and be like "ugh, what a fucktard" and thats ok
but like an exampe to take away with u...im an artist right?..if u didnt like me, could u say u liked a drawing i drew? or would u just assume it was shit bc i did it?
and THAT is what i dont get about some people. | | | | 83 Views | 24 Thumbs Up | 15 Comments | |
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| | just blabbin | | | Saturday, May 24, 2008 (5:48 PM)
(I'm feeling bored) | | blahhhhhhh i might not be around so much, idk
i might be having those things people have..what are they called? oh yea....jobs lol
whats weird to me is its like a "job" job..like something people settle into..not like a temporary thing..so im like whaaaa? cuz it requires alot of training and junk bc its like specialized thing i think..but if i try 2 go after it im hoping it pays more than minimum lol..cuz i need money. fast. lol...so ya...we'll see what goes on with that
u know..i hate when people catagorize themselves in what they wish they were rather than who they are in actuality and like wont admit the grey area and that they just have their moments u know?...this doesnt pertain to anyone online..but perhaps people can take something away from it? idk....but like..i hate when people do one risky thing and then suddenly theyre like "im just a risky person, im always taking chances" but in actuality you're like..."dude...dont call yourself a risk taker when you're too scared to take some chances"
like with me, sometimes i play it safe, but if its something i think can be a good thing, or its something i want - ill take the chance, ive been given this life so i think i should live it however i want no matter how stupid, taboo, or inherently bad the idea sounds to others..and i understand when friends/family say things like "i just dont want to see u get hurt" but like..idk whats the point of living if u cant feel alive? and its stupid to be afraid of getting hurt..i can say ive prolly felt alot of hurt in different fashions...i dont want sympathy for that, it is what it is...and like..my best example..i plan on moving in a year or 2...now some of my family have expressed their disinterest in the idea and theyre like "u know its a bad place out there, you're gonna get hurt..i dont want to see that" and its like...."ya well id rather go out there and get hurt than sit around wondering if things would have been great"...and its the same thing with most other things..i dont understand how people can just skip out on opportunities bc they think itll sound bizarre to others...like i can honestly say that one thing im proud of myself in is since i was a little kid, ive always been an individual...i dressed however i wanted to dress, acted however i wanted, talked the way i wanted and i didnt/dont give a shit about what anyone had/has to say about it or if they thot it wasnt in their conception of "normal"..like i dont like people who feel like they have to change others either...just function u know?
also..have u ever had those moments when someone says something hoping to make u feel better but it makes u feel worse? like its like bad timing, wrong thing to say lol...like usually the person doesnt realize it and i wouldnt ever scorn someone just for trying to make me feel better or caring in any case lol...if u dont know what im talking about...lemme give u some examples... lol
likeeee one from me personally...i was talking with a friend of mine recently irl and we were talking about past relationships and whatnot and love came up and i stated my piece "ive only felt in love in that fashion very very few times, and its never worked out, so yea im bitter about the heartbreak i guess" and then my friend goes "ya...isnt love great tho?"......now technically shes right...and i know she was only trying to help..but was that the right thing to say at that time? prolly not lol..but its nothing i would ever be like "THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL BAD" or anything like that...i just noticed that in my life and couldnt help but to laugh lol
another one was when my mom 1st got diabetes..i remember seeing her in the hospital as a little kid and hearing a family member tell her "at least you dont have cancer, now THAT is serious"...now technically, still true - at least she didnt at the time have cancer..but like..that kind of treated the moment like it wasnt as serious as it was...and it also made it seem like "oh this is sunshine" and its not..both are horrible..why must the two be compared u know? lol
idk its just things in life that just make me step back and laugh....
just sayin ;P | | | | 107 Views | 18 Thumbs Up | 12 Comments | |
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| | 4 the record | | | Sunday, May 11, 2008 (12:57 PM)
(I'm feeling amused) | | http://www.teenspot.com/profiles/xfashionfascist/
this is not me lol
i got a message from someone telling me they had seen my teenspot, and i was like whaaaaaa? *bc i hadnt even heard of that site before* and so i checked it out and someone totally jacked my shit lol
but ya, i signed up real fast and messaged them about it and was like "dude...you're me" and ya, thats about it
but i just wanted to clarify in case anyone is on that site or 4 future purposes
all the information is wrong anywayz but ya | | | | 95 Views | 16 Thumbs Up | 10 Comments | |
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| | follow up | | | Saturday, May 10, 2008 (12:52 AM)
(I'm feeling drained) | | so here it is, nightfall...i said speculated about how i was going to delete my previous blog bc i felt its purpose had been made..but i think im actually going to leave it up...i stand by every statement in that blog...i still think if you violate someone sexually you should be castrated..that is if you're a dude i guess *cuz i know not all jackasses are men*....and ya theres still a lot of very real anger towards the situation still inside my core..i see this for what it is
i got more information on whats going on...however im choosing not to divulge bc i feel its too disgusting and gruesome to go into details about it.....and that kind of thing has no place here 2 me....and this will be the last time i speak on it
and i know some people prolly found all that shocking in my last post, and it is...and i didnt speak out on it to get views or attention..i did it 2 organize thots and just let alot of what i was feeling out...altho i did appreciate those who put their 2 cents in..it made me not feel as upset....but anywayz i dont wish for sympathy or any of that sort of thing..i would actually prefer people just kind of not bothering about it TOO much with me bc i dont want to think about it..but if u have some wise words or u just want to comment, do so. but you are not obligated 2 in my eyes. i understand.
the people who ive spoken to or left comments, thank you
ms. kat ballous comment actually stuck with me and what kind of turned the tide for me not to delete it...or at least not for a bit
so thank you kat :) you're a great friend and of course the dog of my gardens ;)
and to everyone else who left comments, gave me wise advice, or even tried to make me smile..i cant thank you enough :)
some people might say "you are really emotional about this" and all i can say to that is, you dont know what i know about the situation or my life....even some of my closest friends dont know all my interworkings, but i feel thats normal...and im like a book...the longer u stick around, the more the story unravels ;)...so ya close friends and such..if that makes sense
this might be one of the only times u truly get to see me talk about my irl on my blog
or even see me writing in a serious manner..bc i tend to not show that side..4 some reason its an uncomfortable enviornment for me
so like i said, i spoke about this to get out my frustration bc writing has always been something i feel i express myself best in...i refuse to advertise this blog or make people read it bc of its subject and i apologize if any of what i said has personally offended someone, that wasnt my intention..but ya
i just felt like i needed to follow up on everything...
so if you did read this, thank you for you time...:)
much love,
-X | | | | 115 Views | 16 Thumbs Up | 8 Comments | |
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| | my life | | | Friday, May 9, 2008 (1:02 PM)
(I'm feeling crushed) | | so i dont normally talk about my family or anything like that in these bc i have no interest to discuss it and i figure no one wants to read shit about that anywayz, esp if its a downer
however i feel like i need an outlet to collectively express how im feeling at this instant so im making a blog
so im going to talk about 2 of my cousins...1 is older than me..the other is younger..both females...both in some kind of hard times right now and ones effecting me a little more today..but i just need to get it out there
1st off my younger cousin..12 yrs old, has started suddenly having seizures and stuff...and theres no history of that in my family so its like seriously bizarre and i feel bad for her bc shes a sweet kid...like she really is a good kid..and shes smart as hell to...only 12 yrs old and can nearly run circles around me in computer codes and getting around things...shes always kinda looked up to me and stuff..and i know that...and so i never missed chances to like play video games with her *which she is an ace at* and stuff...cuz idk when i was younger i would always love to hang around the older kids you know? like the people i looked up to.....idk im getting away from myself...but im just kind of saddened that she'd have to go thru what shes going thru...they havent even diagnosed her with anything she goes home from the hospital and then will have another seizure and have to go back...and im sure its scary for her and i feel really aweful about it...but thats why i initially was MIA for a bit
now what happened today made me sickened at humanity and i know it happens all the time but irregardless i hate that shit and people that do it should rot in hell. but when i was out today, i get a phonecall from my mother talking about my cousin, the older one...shes about 20...now me and this particular cousin have been close since before i know when...i even used to live across the street from her at one point..on and off i can say shes been one of the closest people to me....and even tho shes only a year older than me i look up to her a great deal...again the subject escapes me...but i get a call letting me know that shes in the hospital...why? bc some fucker date raped her...and she says she doesnt remember most, just parts...and from what i hear shes banged up pretty bad but i dont know all the details....she lives fairly far from me now so i am unable to get to her so im just kind of waiting by the phone for news and whats going on and such...but apparently it was a friend of hers...2 me thats even worse...and the swine that do that shit, that call themselves men are complete and utter fail...and u know right now im a little emotional about it but u know....thats family
and i guess in a way that could raise awareness..i mean that dude was her friend...ugh, he sickens me
but idk, im just kind of like...if i wasnt a big enough mess, why dont we pile on more stuff..and idk im just sad is all i guess
like i said..its not like me to post stuff about my family...not bc i feel like its a secret..its just not me to be so serious..
ill prolly delete this tonight bc i dont want to look at it
so in short, if u violate someone like that, you're fuckin slime.. | | | | 119 Views | 25 Thumbs Up | 13 Comments | |
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| | weird tangent blog | | | Saturday, May 3, 2008 (10:44 PM)
(I'm feeling satisfied) | | you're totally laying in bed with me in my friends apartment, what whattttttttt? but ya he's busy so here we are internets
video idea...me eating a peeps head with bunches of shit on it "ketchup, syrup" etc etc...BUT like how many comments i get for that video..like every 5 will put additional things on my peeps that i have to eat...u know..kind of a you pick the pain kind of thing u know?...idk why but i thot of that....your thots?
i totally forgot mothers day is coming up.....just sayin...
remember tang? is that stuff still around?
oh ya, 4 the record GTA is badass
one thing thats bugging me lately...well, people try 2 like push this whole fear tactic thing on people...and 2 me i think thats like the most lametarded thing ive ever seen...not even just fear...coolness, badassery, etc...to me a true badass never has to say theyre badass..they just are u know? and all this "zomg that persons crazy" remarks...sometimes the most sane people are the most disturbed...like no1 knows what some people do behind closed doors...im just sayin....
on a side note, has anyone heard that story about that dude who like had this weird sexual fantasy where he wanted someone like break into his house and like...i believe he wanted them to torture him, kill him and THEN eat him and leave nothing but the bones..but like according to the legend..he was a video blogger and he put out a video saying, anyone who wants to do that has free permission to come over and it wouldnt be a crime cuz he asked them 2 or whatevs and no one would know anywayz...cuz he thot it would be the ultimate "get off" to be done in that way...and like apparently someone actually did come to his house and did that and the details to it were really gross and gorey...anywayz....i was just wondering if anyone else heard about that story or not....to prove if it was just an urban legend or not
on a more side note, i totally have seen several movies where people get off to being in car accidents....that is bizarre..i mean to each his/her own i guess..but like...DAMN!
oooo i thot of something else to post about..but ill do that when i get home me thinks....lata!
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| | GTA4 | | | Thursday, May 1, 2008 (1:02 AM)
(I'm feeling amused) | | Grand Theft Auto 4....ya ive had it since it came out.....its epic
that + some offline things = u wont be seeing me around much for a short bit lol..but ill put out some videos...rest assured ;) and ill prolly be on at night and such | | | | 98 Views | 20 Thumbs Up | 15 Comments | |
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