Edna St. Vincent Millay... Hyacinth

I am in love with him

To whom a hyacinth is dearer

Than I shall ever be dear.

On nights when the field-mice

Are abroad, he cannot sleep.

He hears their narrow teeth At the bulbs of his hyacinths.

But the gnawing at my heart . . .

He does not hear.

Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

I like to walk alone
At night
In the cold quiet of winter
Wearing my old jacket and my tartan-lined leather gloves
The ones I use for gardening
I have a knife in my pocket
Just  in case

I walk to the abandoned train station
I sit on the worn bench, facing the harbour
Peaceful
With my knife
Ready

But no one ever comes
Not ever
Is it because it's dark and cold?
Or because I have a knife?

Co-Writer of Grammy and CMA Nominated Songs of the year "A Broken Wing" Martina McBride and "Ain't That Lonely Yet" Dwight Yoakam. Along with Diamond Rio's number one smash "In A Week or Two. James House songs have been recorded by Rod Stewart, Sara Evans, Kylie Minogue, Steve Holy, The Mavericks, Craig Morgan, The Warren Brothers, Tina Turner and Steve Azar to name a few. His CD "Days Gone By" on Epic records established him as an artist and produced his own Billboard Top 5 single "This Is Me Missing You" As a recording artist James has toured and performed with: The Beach Boys, Neil Young, Trisha Yearwood, Randy Travis.

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I suffered from anxiety  and panic attacks for years. I don't anymore.. Not panic attacks anyway :) About 14 yrs ago.Patrick's family, while on their way to Cape Breton,dropped by to see our new abode! All went well as it was a weekend and Patrick was home. Dont get me wrong, I love his family but they CAN be "overpowering".Anyway,as they were leaving they announced that they would drop in on their way back.... to which I replied, " I wont be here.. I have to go to Halifax for the day. " BLATANT LIE.. They replied they would stop by anyway" just to check"... Now normally I would have remembered to make sure the doors were locked... so if they should happen to arrive I would be SAFE .   

I forgot.

So there I was tooling around upstairs when I heard the back door open and the whole fucking family waltz in!! What COULD I do??? I was caught, not only HOME ,but lying!! :) I ran into the closet in our upstairs bedroom.. shut the door over.. its one of those louver doors that doesnt quite close. Stood behind Pat's housecoat with my feet in his sneakers and FROZE! They wandered all over the damn house commenting on this and that, (excellent  comments, I might add)and even came into the room where I was ,ah.."resting" My heart was beating a mile a minute and I was terrified I would laugh or sneeze.or fall out!!! They must have been in the house a good 15 minutes which seemed like 2 days! Finally they left and I waited a long time after I heard the car pull away before I came out.One never knows.:) All I could think of is what the fuck do I say if they open the door and see me there?? I mean what the fuck COULD you say? Really.