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| | drowning | | | Wednesday, December 2, 2009 (8:10 PM)
(I'm feeling sad) | | im falling
into the depths of the water
my heart is getting cold
my mind is turning dark
im trying to scream
but i cant find the voice
im trying to breathe
but i cant find how
trying to find the way out
gets farther and farther away
i cant see it
im calling you
as hard as i can
but you dont come
so i fall
breathing the
beating heart
of death | | | 22 Views | 0  Thumbs Up | 0 Comments |  |
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| | poison | | | Sunday, November 22, 2009 (8:13 PM)
(I'm feeling apathetic) | | i hate you
more than i let myself breathe
i have found a way
to let the scars fall
theyre not even on my heart
my heart forgot you
left you in nothing
it does not care
i do not care
my mind does nothing
but think how lost you are to me
it gets more and more intense
you mean nothing to me
you are nothing to me | | | | 26 Views | 0 Thumbs Up | 0 Comments | |
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| | im sorry | | | Tuesday, November 10, 2009 (3:55 PM)
(I'm feeling blah) | | | im sorry for everything that i am to u. which is nothing. do u even see me as anyone. im sorry im not perfect for ur wanting me to be gone from ur life so bad. im sorry i made u hate me. im sorry u never saw wat i was saying and was just focused on telling me to stay the hell away. im sorry i actually cared about being friends with u. im sorry i never saw that u never cared about being friends. im sorry that being honest with me meant nothing to u and u just let me continue making u feel uncomfortable. im sorry i kept trying and trying when i should of seen i should of just stopped. im sorry i was the only one trying. im sorry that it hurts so much to know u never meant i can talk to u about anything. im sorry i couldnt go up to u and say hi whenever i wanted. maybe then u would of actually wanted to talk to me. im sorry if maybe i wasnt pretty enough for u to see as somebody who u would be friends with. im sorry u werent patient with me and just listened to me wanting to say sorry instead of just rushing to get me out of ur life. im sorry u met me | | | | 71 Views | 4 Thumbs Up | 3 Comments | |
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| | my life is going nowhere | | | Friday, October 23, 2009 (2:00 PM)
(I'm feeling worried) | | | i feel like a loser. im doing very bad in school. worse is i barely even go. so that totally makes me feel even worse about how i do so bad. ive never done anything on my own. so of course i feel like i dont deserve my grades. i know thats part of the reason. ive never done anything on my own. but partly its becuz - i know its probably a pathetic reason - but most of school is physical things. like taking notes doing homework - when its not something that can be done on the computer - doing worksheets and tests or quizzes. its better to me to learn something if i could actually do it. im trying - my mom wouldnt believe that cuz she knows ive never done anything on my own - but i am trying. i feel like even when i do try i will never know how to do it. im not even going to a good college. thats how far ive destroyed my school life. community college is still a college but its not like a university. its like a step to the biggest step of ur life. its not gonna help that i go to college cuz i will never know how to do it. and the worst part is. wat if i want a scholarship. i dont think im even worthy of a scholarship. i dont even have a job. which isnt terrible cuz i dont have to have one. but i should by now. i mean cuz im old enough to. not like it would actually happen now. i want a job though. i wanna do something with my life. but how am i gonna get a job becuz i cant do anything. and there arent really any jobs i can do cuz mostly all jobs are physical | | | | 59 Views | 0 Thumbs Up | 2 Comments | |
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| | black shadow | | | Saturday, July 25, 2009 (6:07 PM)
(I'm feeling calm) | | dark
colder
blood on my tongue
darkness
i love you
you have saved me
sweet death
my blood
is yours
stay with me
just let me breathe | | | | 127 Views | 4 Thumbs Up | 3 Comments | |
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| | blood sky | | | Monday, July 13, 2009 (3:22 PM)
(I'm feeling calm) | | my heart is written in lies
tears cry
no more
my heart is bleeding
im falling
im screaming
i cant breathe
its too deep this place
its beyond abyss
darkness surrounds me
black darkness
bleed heart bleed
take me away
until theres nothing left
bleed
im waiting
this isnt really one of my good ones. i can do better | | | | 168 Views | 6 Thumbs Up | 4 Comments | |
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