I came to you for everything. You did the same. I needed you and you needed me. But then something happened. Popularity and social status took over your life. "I'm sorry. I just can't be seen with you anymore." The words were not physically let through your lips. But I could see them dancing in your eyes. I gave you your space and allowed you time to figure things out. That's what you wanted, wasn't it? You wanted me to leave. So I did. The next thing you know, you're talking nasty trash behind my back and accusing me of betraying you. But you betrayed me! I suppose if you can't have me, no one can. But you don't want me. You just want to see me suffer. You want to slowly crush me and tear my life apart bit by bit. You know what? You succeeded. I let you succeed. And whose fault is that? It's mine. It's all mine. Now the only thing left to do is die. I lost you, I lost myself, I lost everything. I'm sorry I couldn't be perfect. I'm sorry I couldn't read your mind every miserable second of every miserable day. What used to be precious to me has turned to dust... Why should I stay? You say you want me to go on, and that you're sorry. I know you are. Oh, you are very sorry. But not for me. You're sorry for yourself. Sorry you have such awful friends, such an awful life. "How dare she think about suicide? I don't remember giving her permission." You think it's a joke. You think it's a planned out, life-long commitment. "Oooh! Today I'm gonna get really depressed and think about suicide!" That's not how it works. You think I wanted to kill myself? There was nothing else left to do! It wasn't a choice, it was something I couldn't avoid. But after I got over that, you had to have your revenge. You continue to torture me. I'm sorry. Sorry what could have been an incredible friendship turned to dust because you couldn't let the past go. Because you couldn't let me go. Goodbye.

Haha!!! Ignore my last entry!!! I'm so fuckin' happy it's Cat's birthday!!! :D You are the best friend a girl could have and if I could, I would be very proud to announce to the whole world: "Hey everybody! It's Cat's birthday! You may not know her but she's the most kick ass person in the universe!!!" I'm gonna have something super special for you up here soon. The problem is that it's 8:34 p.m. here, and (correct me if I'm wrong) 1:34 a.m. where you are at the moment so it may take a while... Just check out my photo channel at some point! XD You really do fuckin rock my world, girl. You're really smart and really funny and just the best all around!!!! (Not to mention the taste in music.) I would like to leave a few special quotes and lyrics here before I finish this up. :)
Billie Joe says, "Our passion is our strength."
Mike says, "It's no use analyzing your life the whole time. Those analyses won’t help you when you’re dead."
Tre says, "Life is like breakfast. You just mix all ingredients 'cause in your stomach it will all come together."
Green Day says, "It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life!"
Live your life the way you want to, rebell whenever possible, learn never to take anyone's shit, and never, ever let them take you alive!!!

I had the most amazing dream about them a couple of nights ago!!! I just remembered that... I'm so random.