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| | Kiss | | | Monday, September 7, 2009 (3:36 PM)
(I'm feeling loved) | | Kiss
It's like a dream
when he softly holds me in his arms
He starts to kiss me,
I feel his tender lips against mine
and now i'm convinced
It is no dream.
his hand slides up to caress my face,
and i cant beleive its real
he opens his lips and slips his tounge in
his breath comes and goes heavily
he slowly pulls away
I open my eyes to see him looking into them
he puts his forehead against mine and his hand in my hair
He whispers to me three small words,
I love you.
for a moment as perfect as this,
it's the best memory i have
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| | ANOTHER test | | | Tuesday, September 1, 2009 (5:18 AM)
(I'm feeling tired) | | Does anyne of the opposite sex have the same name as you?
ummmm no not really
Ever been caught doing something illegal?
Nope!
You watch The Simpsons right?
kinda
Have you ever been cheated on?
NOPE
Are you dating the last person you talked to?
No.
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
umm gma
Does anyone regularly - other than family - tell you they love you?
Yeps me friends
Would you consider painting your bedroom purple?
no i like my room white
Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
umm? idk
Are there any posters in your room?
LOTS
What is stressing you out most right now?
wats going on...
Have you ever lit a candle?
YEAH
What is the closest thing to you that is striped?
My shirt
Have you ever been so scared you couldn't move?
yep but travis helpeded me
What is the last thing you put into your mouth, other than food?
toothbrush XP
Have you ever dropped a baby while holding it?
HELL NO ANND NEVER WIll
Has anyone ever told you they want to have sex with you?
Yes *blushes*
How many hoodies do you own?
about 2
Do you actually wear every shirt in your drawers?
yeah i dnt really have a lot of choices
What is behind you?
wall
Where is the closest trashcan to you?
dining room
Have you ever thrown up in that trashcan?
Nope
Have you ever dropped your phone in a pool?
No! OMG!!!!i'd die!!!!!!!!!
Have you ever seriously thought you were going to marry someone and they broke your heart?
once....but not now!!!
Who did you last text?
My hubbyy
Would you ever live in Hawaii?
nooo i wouldnt really i kinda scared of the chance it might errupt
Have you ever won a contest?
YEP
When was the last time you had the hiccups?
um idk i think it was yesterday
Do you actually have manners?
Some. XP
Would you rather eat 10 spiders or die?
10 spiders if they were'nt deadly
When you were a kid, did you like Barney?
ha ha no .........um........>.>.....<.<.....
Do your parents approve of the music you listen to?
my mom likes the same kinds of music i like xp
Do you keep in touch with your cousins?
no
Have you ever had a crush on a 2nd or 3rd cousin?
wat r those?
Have you ever kissed a boy named Justin?
NOPE AND NEVER WILL
Have you ever had a beverage come out of your nose in public?
OMG YES....embarrasing much?!
Last phone call?
TRAVIS
How is your day going?
okay i guess i tired very tired
Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Yep
Do you know how to swim?
Yes
What color shirt are you wearing right now?
Black with red and white striped thingy
Have you ever received a MySpace message that made you cry?
NO
Last time you cried?
idk
Would you kill a hobo for 100,000,000 dollars
I'd never kill anyone for any amount of money i couldnt llive with myself
Is it ever okay to cheat?
No ! well, i really love travis and i mean if he was i'd forgive him but no cheatings not rite
What does your hair look like?
looks blackish cuz i took a shower
Has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once?
No
Do you think you'd be a good parent?
Yeah =^_^=
Did 11:11 already pass?
uuuuuuummmmmmmmmm
Do you have more...any television obsessions?
huh?
When was the last time you had your hair cut?
a LOOOONGGG TIMMEE AGOOO
Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
kinda i love my mommy
What did you do all day today?
TALK TO mY HUBBY and got ready for school.
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
umm....idk
Have you ever kissed in the rain?
No
What do you think people say about you behind your back?
Idk
Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
HELLZ NO
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
DUH AND I PLAN ON IT
Are you into anyone?
Ohh yeah (my hubby)
If you could change your eye color would you?
ummm.....idk
Are you a jealous person?
yes
Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
HUH?
Are you going to be home alone tonight?
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| | TEST?! | | | Friday, August 7, 2009 (12:24 PM)
(I'm feeling UUUM..TRAVIS CRAZY ) | | Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
() Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 0
Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2
Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
() Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
() Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 3
Level 4
() Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantART / sheezyart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
() Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 5
Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 6
Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 10
Level 7
( x) Had A Tea Party
() Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (no idea)
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 13
Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
() Gone Sliding (HUH?)
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 17
Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
() Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 18
Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
() Been Robbed / Vandalized
() Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 20
Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 21
Level 13
() Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
() Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 22
Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
() Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
() Questioned Your Heart
( x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 24
Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
() Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 26
Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
() Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 30
Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 33
Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
() Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 35
Level 19
() Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 36
Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
() Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
() Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 36
Level 21
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
() Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 39
Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 43
Level 23
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
() Had/Been In A Tree House
( x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 45
Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail
SO FAR: 46
Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken (do what?!)
() Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused (ALL THE TIME!)
SO FAR: 48
Level 26
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
() Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
() Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 49
Level 27
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
() Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someones Hair (FAILED COMPLETELY!)
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 51
Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
() Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 53
Level 29
() Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs (-_- everytime travis comes to see me....)
() Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 56
Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
() Flattened someones tires
() Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 56
Repost this with the title:
I've Done __ 56of the 120 stupidest things. (with your total in that blank spot.)
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| | TEST FOR MYSELF XP | | | Sunday, June 28, 2009 (1:38 PM)
(I'm feeling IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDKKKK) | | Quick quiz about yourself
Answer and explain if you want to.
Fav expression: um.....
Number Section
ONE - Spell your name without vowels: srr
TWO - Are you single?: ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!!! i gots an awesome husband!
THREE - What’s your favorite number?: 7,15,17
FOUR - What color do you wear most?: umm i dnt have a color i wear most i just wear the clothes
FIVE - Least favorite color?: brown
SIX - Favorite candy?: Jolly Ranchers,crunch bars!
SEVEN - What do you smoke?: NOTHIN BUT AIR!!!!!!.
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: totally except i still have one wish tht wont come true till i'm 16 or 18
NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: nope
TEN - What is your favorite class in school?: ummm....orchestra!!!!!!!
ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: ummm does walmart count?
TWELVE - How do you make money?: ummmm....i dnt
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?: i have alot of best friends but my besty is TRAVIS
FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: at junior high
FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: i think so
SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: optimistic
SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: sneakers!
EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses?:ummm....how big XP
NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: with my husband....
TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: cleaning
TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: duh my hubby
HONEST SECTION:
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: this is an awesome song..
Honestly, what are you doing right now?: talking to my hubby and listenin to music
Honestly, have you done something bad today?: umm....no?
Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?: TOTALLY I LOVE SUNNY WITH A CHANCE!~
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: lol i'm talkin on the phone with TRAVIS!
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: totally mackenzie.....-_- she gets to hug my hubby
Honestly, who is thy last person you had a sex dream with?:ummm.....<,< >,> Guess!!!!!!!!!!
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: umm....idk
Honestly, do you bite your nails?: yeah TT.TT
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: yes travis...
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: nope ^_^
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?: oooohhhh yeah at school..........
Honestly, your Favorite sex position?: NONYAS!
THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: YEP
Can you dance?: i think i can dance in my own way idc wat others think
Can you do a cart wheel?: KINDA
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: YEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you whistle?: YES
Can you wiggle your ears?: no TT.TT
Can you wiggle your nose?: no i'm not samantha <.< (bewitched)
Can you roll your tongue?: ummm idk.
Can you make a clover with your tongue?: Wat.
Can you make balloon animals?: i can make aline! XP
ANGER SECTION:
What do you do when you’re mad?: shut down and not talk to anyone
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: Made travis feel bad......
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: idk...
CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: YEP
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yeah .........lots of times
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: yeah .
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yes.
Ever cried over the same sex?: yeah
Do you cry when you get an injury?:sumtimes depends rly
Do certain songs make you cry?: yeah...
Do certain movies make you cry?: yeah
HAPPY SECTION:
Are you usually a happy person?: i guess
What makes you the happiest?: when travis tells me how much he loves me
Does being with your friends make you happy?: YEP
Do you believe in yourself?: YES most of the time
Do you wish you were happier?: nope i'm already happy
Is being happy overrated?:no.
Can music make you happy?: yes
WHAT made you Hippy a few secs ago?TRAVIS
LOVE SECTION:
How many times have you had your heart broken?: once
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: i'm in tht situation and lovin it
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said ‘I love you’?:me closest friends just cuz iz a gurl thing XP
HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?: TOTALLY -_- i wana kill my aunt at the moment.
Have you ever been on a hit list or block list?: do wat?
Are you a mean bully?: idk.....am i?
Do you hate George Bush?: yeah but idk why
SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: I dunno,
Do you think you're good looking?: travis says so so i guess
Do you wish you could be someone else?: nope
LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color?: Brown
Current piercings?: None
Have any tattoos?: Nope
Straight hair or curly?: Straight
CURRENTLY WEARING:
What shirt are you wearing?: a big one with a teddy bear on it ^_^
Necklace(s)?: yep one travis gave me
Bracelet(s)?:no
Shoes?: None
HAVE YOU EVER:
Hugged someone?: uhh duh?
Been on the phone until the sun came up?: Yes
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: lolololol no
Laughed so hard you cried?: Yes
Got in a fight with someone?:ummmm.......depends wat kinda fight?
THE LAST:
Person you talked to in person?: G-MA
Person you talked to online?: Mickey
Person you hugged?: jonny
RANDOM:
Do you like surveys?: sumtimes they're time consuming
Do you get along with your parents?: Yes
Do you have mental breakdowns?: idk?
CURRENT:
Current mood: bored
Current music: Lovely remix-breathe carolina
Current hair style: Messy in a pony
Current crush: TRAVIS
Current thing I ought to be doing: sleeping
Current windows open: uhh none
Current desktop picture: transformers
THE DIDS:
Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?: no
Did you ever run away from home?: Nope
Did you ever want to be a doctor?: yep
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: when i was littler iz still a good idea
THE DOS:
Do you know how to swim?: Yes!!!!!!! I love swimming
Do you like roller coasters?:HELLZ YEAH .
Do you own a bike?: Yes
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: umm i guess
THE DOES:
Does hair loss run in your family at all?: Idk
Does your car get good gas mileage?: I dnt have a car
Does your family have family picnics?: yeah .
THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?:never
Have you ever been to the ocean?: yeah but i dnt remember it...
Have you ever painted your nails?: yeah i should do tht paint them purple XP (gay itachi*)
THE HOWS:
How tall are you?:umm 5'4
How much money do you have on you right now?: none
THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with?: Dawn
Last thing someone said to you?: GO CHEK ON JONNY
Last thing you said out loud?: no
YES OR NO.
NO EXPLANATIONS UNLESS SOMEONE COMMENTS AND ASKS.
Kissed any one of your Furaffinity friends? — ???
Kissed any one on youtube friends? - Yes
Been arrested? — No
Kissed someone you didn't like? — no
Slept in until 5 PM? — no
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes
Held a snake? — YA!!!!
Ran a red light? — No
Been suspended from school? — No
Experienced love at first sight? — Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? — No
Been fired from a job? — No
Fired somebody? — No
Sung karaoke? — Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? — No
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yes
Kissed in the rain? — no
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — yeah
Saw someone die? — no
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — No
Smoked a cigar? — nope
Sat on a rooftop? — no
Smuggled something into another country? — No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? —No
Broken a bone? — No
Skipped school? — no
Eaten a bug? — Yes
Sleepwalked? — no
Walked on a moonlit beach? — no TT.TT
Ridden a motorcycle? — Yes
Dumped someone? — Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? — nope, well...the actuall date
Lied to avoid a ticket? — No
Ridden in a helicopter? — No
Shaved your head? — No
Shaved your pubes? — NONYAS
Blacked out from drinking? — No
Played a prank on someone? — Yes
Hit a home run? — no
Felt like killing someone? — Yes
Cross-dressed? — Yes .
Been falling-down drunk? — No
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — Yes
Eaten snake? — No
Marched/Protested? — Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — lol no
Puked on an amusement ride? — No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — No
Knitted? — no
Been on TV? —Yes
Shot a gun? — No
Skinny-dipped? — No
Given someone stitches? — No
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — No
Ridden a surfboard? — No
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — No
Had surgery? — no
Streaked? — no
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — when i was in my momma
Tripped on mushrooms? — No
Passed out when NOT drinking? — No
Peed on a bush? — no
Donated Blood? — nno
Grabbed electric fence? — Yes
Eaten alligator meat? — No
Eaten cheesecake? — Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? — No
Peed your pants in public? — No
Snuck into a movie without paying? — no
Written graffiti? — No
Still love someone you shouldn't? — nope
Think about the future? — Yes
Been in handcuffs? — No
Believe in love? — Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? —yeah
Had sex with the same sex? — nope
Made a gift for someone? —yeah
Hot for Teacher? - ewwwww no
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| | My..... worst...nightmare..... | | | Thursday, June 25, 2009 (5:26 PM)
(I'm feeling idk......) | | My nightmare........
I wake up in the morning and call him. He answers and we talk for a long time, after a while i say "I need to go take a shower." he says,"okay well, i'm going to go back to bed ect. (this is what happens every school day almost) I go take a shower and then go to school. I get to school and someone's always crying or blabbing about how sucky there life is. Other than that my day is awesome. I talk about him all day to my friends telling them that in about a week or so I'm going to get to see him. All throughout the day, i daydream of him. I get in the car afterschool and my mom doesnt look me in the eyes. I ask her whats wrong but she doesnt answer, she changes the subject, i figure its just something thts bothering her. So i ask for the phone so i can txt him and call to tell him i'm okay after school. I call about three times and i get the answering machine. I shrug it off saying maybe he's taking a nap and has his phone on silent. i try back 2 hours later, still, no answer. Okay, thats nothing to be worried about hes probably just doing something with his brothers he'll call back. I get ready to go to bed and by this time, I'm worried sick. I call over and over. trying to think optimisticly Finally i go to sleep after trying to find a comfortable spot to lay in my bed. In the morning i call again and again, still no answer. i listen to his voicemail and leave a message."Well, i guess your sleeping when you wake up goodmorning stay safe and i love you." again, i get ready for school and go to school i dont tell anyone what happened cuz its probably no big deal. I'm soooo worried now. I get into the car feeling sick to my stomache and i call again. "hello?" a female voice answers. "Hey! is travis there?" I ask a little worried. "um...."~click~ she hung up on me.....I'm trying to think optimisticly still. Then the phone rings. I pick it up and answer anxiously " Hey, Travis?" another girl answers. "I'm......ssoo soo sorry.........." she says that and by now i'm crying. "What happened!?! where's travis?!" His mom says,"he.....hes dead sierra...He..he got into a car accident and died a day ago." I drop the phone and stare blankly out the window. My mom asks me if i'm okay and embrasses me. I jump out of the car and run. i run to the far side of the feild thinking, this is some sick joke....this isnt happening. I shutdown......i grab the phone and call again and again.......When again, his mom answers i scream at her and tell her shes lying this cant be true!!!!!! I continue yelling while i cry i can hear her sobbing. I yell and yell until i dont have any voice left. I just sit there staring. not at anything in particular. i finally get up and walk slowly back to where my moms waiting in the car. Her eyes are red. and I know its true. I blame myself........i dont know why....there's a whole in my heart. I feel sooo alone, I cant cry, i cant speak i just sit there in the car as still as the night that finally falls over my house, I stare at his picture. I just stare at it. My mom and siblings all come into my room and try feeding me and comforting me. I just shrug them off and i dont move. i dont say anything. I call his phone over and over just listening to his voicemail. I cant help but cry everytime i hear it. My mom gets me to eat something, I think.....Travis wants me to stay alive.....he told me that....... At his funeral I stare at him in his coffin and cry over him screaming at everybody...Some of his and my internet friends have came. they pry me off of him and hold me in there arms. I Just scream as they close his coffin I tear through them open it and kiss his lips. They're icecold. I cry and i let them take me away. As i ride in the car to the cemetary I just stare out the window crying. I look at my ring and remember everything he's ever told me. we finally get there and as they lower the casket i'm right next to it crying and telling him i love him and i'm sorry. Once again they pick me up. When they cover up his grave and everyone starts leaving....I hug his parents.his siblings and then i sit at his grave and look at the gravestone. It says, trustworthy friend,and husband. I cry and i hug the stone clinging onto it and i just sit there. I dont move even when they try to make me. I finally get up after spending the night there....our friends have waited with me and i follow them trying my hardest to smile. I can feel travis with me.....it feels llike hes right behind me watching me. I smile and i look at my friends. and tell them, I need to be happy for him. that's all he wanted.........The time goes on.....i cry every night and i never go out with anyone. i grow up and write a book for him. a manga book. based on every part of the one he wanted to make. the book he told me he wanted to make. i illustrate it and put a picture of him on the back. I go to his grave every day and just spend time with him there. after a while his precsense disappeared. but i still feel him looking down on me. i know hes happy where he is and that he'll wait for me where he is. I smile everday but i cry at the same time thinking of all the good times we spent together. People tell me to just forget it and move on. but stubborn me. i'll never move on from the most perfect person i had ever met.
i actually had this dream...........it was soooo sad...........i cried......all night........but i couldnt tell travis.........because i'd end up crying even more............now he'll know......i never ever wana lose you travis.......i love you so much
Thankies
Sierra Anime1029345
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| | The little girl | | | Sunday, June 21, 2009 (10:37 PM)
(I'm feeling sad) | | I wrote this story........
A man is walking along from work on a snowy day in a blizzard. He sees something,or someone sitting in the cream colored snow and goes over to it. He dusts off the little girl and quickly asks her if shes okay. The girl doesnt answer so he checks her pulse and gives her his jacket. He grabs his phone and calls 911. At the hospital,a doctor came up to him and asked him how he found her. He told the doctor how he'd found her in the snow. The doctor calmly told him that they couldnt save her heart and it had stopped beating when she got to the hospital. Even though the man didnt know who the little girl was he was struck with grief. He sat down in a chair and held onto his jacket tightly. He listened as the doctor told him what had happened and what they found out about the little girl. The doctor said that she had been raised in a rich family, but her parents beat her almost to death, someone found out and the girl was put in an orphanage. A guy had adopted her but, he raped,abused,tormented,used her,and given her to one guy at a bar. He raped her and then dumped her there in the snow. The man just gawked at what the doctor had told him. He couldnt beleive it. He'd never met the girl before but she looked familiar. Then he realized, he had seen her at an orphanage once before. He'd seen her but she looked happy. He didnt do what his instincts were. The man oddly knew that something bad would happen to this little girl, but looking at that smile,.... he couldnt bring himself to think of anything bad happening to someone like that so he just left her there. All because of the mask that the little girl had on.He sat there crying when the doctor left. It was very hard for him to cry. but he did. A few days later he heard on the news the little girls story, the guy who had adopted her along with the guy who dumped her in the snow confessed to their mistakes and were also charged with murder accounts aside from the little girl. They both were sentenced to death. The man smiled. He knew he wanted, or that those guys deserved alot more than what they are getting, he knew that the little girl is in a better place now. He arranged for her to be buried. Noone came, but him. He felt happier now, that the little girl wasnt being put through all of this. To this day he feels bad that the little girl died and he blames himself. But, everyday, he goes to her grave and reads to her and tells her stories. He knows everyone else thinks hes stupid and its an idiotic thing to do but, he felt really bad for her and wanted her to be happy. so he did this everyday. One day, he was sitting there reading to her and he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked around everywhere but, he could not find anyone. After that he always felt like he was alone when he came to read and tell his stories. He came less and less and then just stopped coming alltogether. The last day he visited her grave, he put a note on her gravestone and walked away.
The note said.
I hope i've made you happy for at least a little while. Before you passed on. I hope you have at least a little happy moments from your short life. I'm so extremely sorry. There's not a day that goes by that i dont think about you. But, your in a better place now, and i know that you'll be happy there so you dont have to feel bad. Have fun.
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Its sad, that people had to and still have to hide behind a mask because, they're afraid of getting hurt again again.I've met sooo many people who have had problems with their parents or even just strangers. i have no idea how they feel but i'm pretty sure they have that sheild/mask on just incase, just for protection because, theyve lost the trust they've once had. As i said i cant say anything really, and i'll never know how it feels, but i can always imagine... and i'm soorry for everyone thats ever been in any situation like this. | | | | 71 Views | 8 Thumbs Up | 5 Comments | |
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| | Dreaming of him | | | | Friday, June 19, 2009 (2:02 PM) | | I dream of him
All day and all night
I dream of being held in his arms,
but when i open my eyes, he disappears
I could've sworn he was there.
I could smell his scent,
and feel the warmness of his skin
as his arms softly caress me.
I could feel his warm breath on my neck
as he breathes in my hair.
I want this moment to last
as we pass secret murmers to eachother.
I open my eyes and everything fades,
Once again he disappears
Sadly i remember, how far away from me, he is
My heart is overwhelmed by sadness because,
i remember that it was all just a dream
I smile at the thought of hearing his voice again.
I pick up the phone and call
He answers in his lovely voice.
and again i'm floating. | | | | 63 Views | 8 Thumbs Up | 5 Comments | |
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