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| | =) | | | | Thursday, May 1, 2008 (9:20 AM) | | I wrote a blog yesterday but I must have not hit a button right because it didn't post. So I thought I'd give a little update. I came back home on Sunday and am so happy to be back. I was gone for a week and a half but it seemed like so much longer. My parents life in Marana, AZ and everyday for about 5 days we drove from Marana to Phoenix if you don't know the distance look it up. Finally we got a hotel room in Phoenix and stayed there the remainder of the time. I extended my stay twice because the first time I extended it, my dad hadn't gotten a liver yet and the second time was because he had just gotten the liver that morning and I wanted to be able to see him when he was coherent. My dad said as soon as he could speak that he had a goal to get out of there in 5 days. It wasn't looking like that was going to happen because they were watching him so closely they refused to release him from ICU until 2 days ago. My mom and brother took a class at the hospital on how to take care of my dad and he's going home today. They were going to send him home yesterday but changed their minds. So he was almost on target but just 1 day longer. He's doing really good and healing fast! He's walking without a walker. I called him just now at the hospital and his voice is back to normal. I haven't been able to talk to my dad on the phone in a long time because his voice would start cracking. We talked for about 30 minutes without a problem! Thank you all for your well thoughts and prayers!
Now me... well things are pretty much the same. School, work, kids, husband... same-o same-o. I start my third class next Tuesday. It's going by pretty fast except right now I would be starting my third and fourth classes if I were still going to the other school. Oh well. Don't know if I told you all but David and I celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary on March 29th. 6 years have flown by quickly!
I don't know if many of you know but I have 2 brothers and a sister. My sister is the oldest, one bro is older than me, and one is younger. I get along with all my siblings but I'm so much different from them all. My sister is probably the biggest moron I have ever known. She's been a screw up since I could remember and still has not grown up. She has 4 kids, one that she put up for adoption when she was 16 but it was an open adoption so we still see her a lot. You would think that her kids would make her grow up but they haven't. She and her husband are on the verge of getting a divorce and he took my nephews. He told her that when she's stable and has her own place that she can see them but until then she can't. She has my niece because my niece is from a different father. She's pulling the same shit. My sister has no home, and no job. She's going from place to place mooching off of anyone that will let her. When I went home I saw my niece because right now she's living with my parents. Her name is Destiny and she is 8 years old. She confided in David in some things and the things she told him broke my heart. She said things like she has no family now (in reference to her parents getting a divorce) and that she doesn't like her mom. She has an irratic schedule and doesn't know what one day might bring because each day is so different. With my mom back and forth between home and Phoenix and my brothers taking care of her or her having to go stay with some family friends she has no regularity. David and I have talked and we may see if my sister will give us legal guardianship of her. She doesn't get to be a kid living the life she's living right now. When my sister decides to take her for the weekend they're looking for a place to stay and sometimes end up in shelters. The school told my mom that if Destiny goes back with my sister that they're going to contact CPS. It's really sad. Has anyone been in a similar situation? If so... shed some light on what you think. I want my niece to have the best life possible and right now she has no kids to play with and she doesn't get to act like a kid. I think that David and I can help her. We have plenty of space in our home, she'd love to play with the girls, we're stable, we always have food (this is in reference to my sister not having food not my mom), and we have the time for her as well as being financially capable of taking another child. I worry about her a lot especially since my sister threatens to take her back from my mom. I don't want my niece to end up with a foster home that will just make her life even harder.
Anyway, this will go on forever so I'm going to end it now. I may continue it later because I didn't even get in to my brothers and what they're up to. | | | 34 Views | 10  Thumbs Up | 8 Comments |  |
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| | !!!!!!!!!!!! | | | | Thursday, April 24, 2008 (7:18 PM) | | | It's happened! Today at about 5 pm the nurse came in and told him "no more food or drinks you have tests tomorrow" my dad got upset because he thought the tests were all done with. About 5 minutes later his transplant doc called on his room phone and told him that they have a liver but they have to check it out to make sure it's good. 10 minutes later we were given a thumbs up and he's scheduled for surgery tonight at 9:30 pm!!! Now lets pray that his body accepts the new liver and that he wakes up!! It's scary but exciting at the same time. He was beginning to lose hope and thought that it wasn't meant to be. I'll keep you all updated. | | | | 41 Views | 11 Thumbs Up | 7 Comments | |
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| | !!!! | | | Sunday, April 13, 2008 (5:06 PM)
(I'm feeling ecstatic) | | Good news!! My dad has made it on the transplant list and he's at the top of it. They have everything ready and are just waiting for a liver to arrive! He's in Phoenix I think until after he has the transplant. My friend is giving me a buddy pass to go back home and see him. Not sure when I'm going but I'm getting ready in the event that I leave last minute.
I'm so happy that he's been given this second chance! I just hope that the operation goes smoothly and his body accepts the new liver.
Until then... on pins and needles... | | | | 51 Views | 10 Thumbs Up | 5 Comments | |
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| | I don't know... | | | Saturday, April 12, 2008 (1:38 AM)
(I'm feeling disappointed) | | I've tried here on LiveVideo... tried for over a year. It's been fun and boring and frustrating yet entertaining. I'm not here to be viewed and watched but to be understood. I make my videos with the intent of getting feedback... I write my blogs for the same reasons. I write more blogs than I make videos because I'm more expressive through writing. I feel that ever since I came here on LV I've never really been understood. Anyone that I was close with in the beginning has either left or moved on. You wouldn't think that making vids regularly would be something that would maintain a friendship to me it should be about keeping in touch even if it's once every couple weeks. I've done that with the people I consider worth it... I've reached out to people with no success... I'm not looking for attention. Believe me I have no time nor energy to worry about getting attention. I'm simply stating my feelings and thoughts. I feel that although people claim to be open minded, they're not. I'm so different from anyone I've ever met and I've forgotten how to make friends. I try but always fall short somewhere. It's probably my own fault but without anyone really telling me where I'm wrong I'll never know how to change. I've reached out and I think my blogs have been fairly good at showing what I think and feel but no one really gives me anything that REALLY makes me think or that opens my eyes. I'm on the verge of closing shop... no not closing my account because i still have those few people that make such amazing videos I couldn't imagine not being able to watch them. I mean just being more of a watcher... sit on the sidelines watch, comment... and go on my merry way. I may keep up with the blogging I haven't really decided yet. I'm not sure really what I'm wanting to do here right now. I should concentrate on other things and making videos for me right now is more a chore than anything. I do however appreciate all the positive reactions I got to my first brutally honest video ever and it did open my eyes to something new and exciting. I just don't have the time to make videos and I feel that if I want to be an active member here on LV that I should at least keep up with it once a week... I owe my subscribers at least that much. But really... I'm not sure they watch anyway. Most of the people just subscribe for their own selfish reasons... I don't want numbers I want to see something in my face... visual. The most disappointing part I think of LiveVideo is that the few people I felt I could count on nearly a year ago... I knew without a shadow of a doubt I'd see their faces on my vids.... have let me down. Without them... the ones I've considered friends... then there's no use putting time into this. So if you wonder why Stanky isn't making vids anymore... why her page looks so empty... remember this blog.
I have other things going on in my life right now... major, life changing things and really just need to concentrate on that. I can't even sleep these days and don't know when I'll be able to rest. I've rambled on and on and this whole thing is probably leaving you all confused. I'm confused too. | | | | 70 Views | 15 Thumbs Up | 9 Comments | |
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| | Decisions.... | | | | Thursday, April 10, 2008 (8:05 PM) | | So here I am, I should be doing my school work, studying, and trying to do well in my class... but I can't seem to motivate myself. I did get an "A" on my last class and just worry that it's not going to be so easy this time around. I have papers due every week and tests, things that are really not the norm for me at this point but I guess should be for any college student. I got notification today that commencement is in July. I don't know if I should do it or just wait till I get my bachelors. Is it going to be a waste of time and money? Who's really going to be there? I don't know... seems so pointless but at the same time I'm excited. I didn't walk when I graduate high school. Hell I didn't graduate until a week after everyone I went to school with did. My friend Jessica came and lived with my family because she was having probs at home (my house was a sanctuary for a lot of mine and my bro's and sis' friends) Jessica was loud and noisy. I was in an economics class that required studying every night. Reading 3 chapters a day and having pop quizzes 3-4 times a week. The class was demanding and required 100% attention. I did really well and enjoyed the class in the beginning and then after she moved in, I couldn't study. She would talk on the phone or do her hw while I was reading. She'd flip through the pages of her books and I couldn't retain any of the information I was reading. Needless to say I failed. The class was 1/2 a credit and well I didn't graduate because I was 1/2 a credit short. I had plans to leave for the Air Force, I thought all my plans had gone down the drain. I felt like a failure and such a big disappointment to my parents. My recruiter TSgt Relyea, he was awesome... he got me set up to attend a charter school. All I had to do was take once class for 4 days and I'd earn that 1/2 a credit. I took a class in criminology and 4 days later walked away with a hs diploma. I left the following week for the Air Force. So I'm contemplating. I don't have to give my decision till June so I have plenty of time to think it over. By then I'll know more about what's going on and whether any of my family will be able to make it.
A few of you know that my dad is sick. We've known for years that his health was going downhill but in the past 6 months his health has taken a turn for the worse. He's been in and out of the hospital and just went back in two weeks ago tomorrow. He's now in ICU and things are looking bad. They may send him to Phoenix to see if he qualifies for a liver transplant but I've done my research and my dad drank and drank a lot and they don't normally consider anyone for transplants if they drank. I'm trying to think positive and hope that they can put him on the list. He's getting sicker and sicker everyday, he's got his body poluted with toxins because his liver is failing. Here I am in TX. I need to get out to AZ to see him in case he doesn't get on the list or winds up waiting too long. It's hard when you have a family. I don't know really what to say or do. I'm waiting, I won't be able to go until Next week if I do go. My MIL says she can watch the girls if I need to go but they're going out of town this weekend and next and my husband works this weekend. It's a waiting game, I feel horrible and I need to be there with my family right now. So that's one of my reasons for not knowing whether I should walk or not. Will my dad still be sick in July? Will he be here? How will my family be? If my dad is still here but not able to come, I don't want my family to leave him. He needs all the family around him that he can have. I'll keep you guys posted. I have a good amount of time to figure out what I want to do, right now I just want to worry about my dad and getting out there to see him. | | | | 59 Views | 8 Thumbs Up | 5 Comments | |
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