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| | My dream | | | Wednesday, July 9, 2008 (10:47 PM)
(I'm feeling hopeful) | | Well ever since I could remember I have wanted to be a performer (actress or/and singer). But the thing is that I was never encraged to go for my dream. Know that I am old enouf to live my own life, I want to go for my dream. I know it will be hard but it will be worth it in the end! All I have to do is loose a little LB, read and study book on performing, view movies on it too, practice a lot, (I might have to relocat, but I am willing!), go to additions and do better then my best, and when I become a performer give 120% of myself to my dream!
But I do have to admit it would be easier if I know someone who could help me get into performing or someone how know of a school that would really help me get into it and not take my money and run! | | | 7 Views | 0  Thumbs Up | 0 Comments |  |
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| | Blamed | | | Wednesday, July 9, 2008 (10:38 PM)
(I'm feeling sad) | | I hate myself because I am always blamed for things I didn't do or say. Because of this I have lost someone I care about and will never get them back! (I want to cry!) Also I get in trouble for stuff I don't do and people get mad at me over it. (Don't like it when they get mad, because it makes me sad. Also because I try so hard to get people to like me and to be good!)
Maybe they would be happy if I would just die! Because I would be out of there lives. Also because they can't blame things on me or try to take the things & people I care about away! But most of all I wont be in so much pain over this & loose the people I care about very much!
I know I will care about him and want to be around him even after I die! Wish I could be with him in every way! But I can't because I don't think he would ever be with me. Also I think that in his eyes I never was or will be good enough for him. | | | | 13 Views | 0 Thumbs Up | 0 Comments | |
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| | True love | | | Wednesday, July 9, 2008 (10:34 PM)
(I'm feeling cheerful) | | To me true love is when a person loves & care for another person, so much that it hurts not to be with that person. Your mind, heart, soul, and body all are saying the same thing (that you love this person and want to be with them forever). Also you think of them all the time, worry about them, & see them when you close your eyes!
Real love you have to work real hard to keep. So take it from someone who knows, Don't run from the person you love. Because if you do you might just loose them for ever! Besides that, a love like that only comes along once in a life time, so hold on to it.
The hard part of being really in love is letting go, but only when you have to. (At lease when you have to, you can always say that you tried to keep that kind of love.) Even though it will hurt you so much that you will fill like you have died on the inside (meaning soul, mind, heart, & body). Just hope and pray for that maybe one day they will come back to you (if it was ment to be).
P.S Please hear my words & take them to heart! I don't want anyone to end up like me, a captive of my own pains and heart ack! | | | | 5 Views | 0 Thumbs Up | 0 Comments | |
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| | Life’s little problems | | | Wednesday, July 9, 2008 (10:30 PM)
(I'm feeling confused) | | For the first time in my life I think I might have a crush on someone (or I just really like him). But the thing is he is my best friend. So I fill like I am doing something wrong by filling this way about him. Another problem with me liking him like this is that he is over the age of 18 (and I’m only 15 right now.) But not only that I’m not aloud to date until I am 18.
The reason I think I have might have crush on him is cause I love being around him, I care about him, I don’t like it when he is in pain, it hurts me when people attack him, and I think he is really fun to talk to. Also cause he a sweet, kind, & a cool person. Besides all that, he is really talented, cute, & hot!
I don’t think my fillings for him are lust cause I still think boy have coo dies & I don’t really care if I ever end up with someone one day. Also I don’t want to ever fall in love cause I don’t want to get my heart broken or take the chance they will hurt me fiscally. And I don’t want someone to fall in love in love with me, cause I am scared I will hurt them one day.
This is so confusing to me cause I don’t know how to react to all this. So I am just trying to act normal around him. Also I’m trying to act like there is nothing is going on with me when i'm around my other friends. But I guess they're gunna know! | | | | 6 Views | 0 Thumbs Up | 0 Comments | |
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