*Life so far, O.O
Well mmm =/ i wouldn't say it's so 'great' D: It's pretty shitty right now. I got into some stuff that only some people that i know wouldn't get mad knows. =/ And i'm having health issues and what not D: I am extremely stressed as FUCK! From 1 to 10, 3 being normal, my stress level's like 9. Some people would be like "Why are YOU stressed? It's not like you DO anything!" HA... please, i'm stressed for reasons even I don't quite understand. I just feel... stressed =/ (I think my hair's thining O______________O See how fucking stress i am?!?!) Also i've developed the sleeping disorder called "Insomnia" =/ yyeeaahh, not so grand. I haven't slept in 2 days so far, so i'm having sleeping issues. Even though i always had sleeping issues, just issues with FALLING asleep. I have to stay up until i can barely keep my eyelids open, until i can't think anymore, then i sleep. If i try before than, i'll tend to have violent panic attacks. Some VERY violent. D: Lately, i just wanna cry and die =/ Oh and my depression's being cured, (Not like i can feel it being cured D: Also my memere had to tell my god damn parents D< Even though my mom KNEW i was DEPRESSED... i guess she thought it was of hormones, WRONG! Yeah, they know about the cutting now =/ Meh. ) i'm taking pills now. Meh, i still wanna die, i might wanna die more then EVER now Dx Oh and to top it all off, my mom's threading me to put me in the hospital if i don't eat more D: I'M ALWAYS SICK! I CAN'T STAND FOOD WHEN I'M ABOUT TO THROW UP! NO MATTER WHAT IT IS! Dx I'm missing 6756437856487354 days of school now! I can't focus in school, i'm FAILING, i can't WORK D: FUCK THIS! Oh lets don't forget, i've totally changed o3o New Chantel sad D: I've changed in every possible way imaginable o.o i swear to god Dx Also, lets not forget about the all mighty "Jordan E. Nowlan" now... a huge part of the reason why i'm so fucked up :D Why i got into shit and why i'm abusing pills(Mostly Tylenols, my dad hid the ultra strength on me D: He found out Dx ) , drugs, energy drinks (Again!) and alcohol! (Had some close death from doing that o.O) Thank him people >> THANK HIM!!!!!!! A friend of mine even said she wishes he was DEAD for what he did to me! WOOW! Sure, reading this, you're like "Wtf... drama queen much!" Psh >> I'm not over reacting, he did effect my life in a HUGE way, if you know how, you would be angry at him too >> Saddest part is i can't seem to stop FUCKING LOVING THAT MAN even when i TRIED!! D: I'VE FUCKING TRIED o.e *sigh* Life was suppose to be getting better, I WAS WRONG! It's much worst, doing stuff that when i was younger, i swore i would NEVER do D: Well, i was wrong... AGAIN! OH WAIT, THERE'S MORE :D My DAD ask if i would KILL myself :B What eh awesome question to be ASKED from your PARENT! >> Psh! Amazing >> He asked because i said i gave up on life =/

A Chantel Josephine LeBlanc life :B Fabulous, isn't it? >>

Sorry for typing so much >> There's more bbuuttt..... i'll keep it at that :P Chiao!