2.34pm
Dear diary,
I'm eating a snowball. It's has a thin round crust sparked with sugar powder and lots of vanilla cream inside. Calories? Yes. Do I care? No. The little globe tastes sweet, like if you were to dip the world into thick cream and when you'd bite into it, half of it would stay on your face. When you look outside there's no snow, there hasn't been any, it's either rainy, windy to a stormy extend or very warm. In other words my calender must have skipped winter. I need snow. My eyes have   more...grown a little cold though, from staring at a cold screen who doesn't look back at me. A few days ago a storm decided to pay us a visit. There were warnings everywhere and the public transport was out of order. My aged windows creaked like chimney wooden doors burning. The wild wind wandered no whirled through the streets with a violent rush, distributing ginormous slaps to the left and right, hitting my windows from time to time, which were on the verge to opening. Natural catastrophies, more and more frequent as the fever rises and the four elements, the wandering wind, the sanguine sun, the w-w-w.water and the energetic earth show their furry because most of us aren't taking care. Profit driven countries such as the United States don't sign contracts to limit their pollution because they think too much of the present and not about the future.  less

11:05 pm
Dear diary,
Today, I came to an important realization. Bamberg has stars hanging on the sky. Yes, I repeat there are stars growing on the endless blue tree. It took one year. One whole year and maybe a little bit more. Have they been hiding? I tried to rip down a piece of the sky so that I could take a few with me, take them home and release them like butterflies caught and then set free to spread happiness with their breath like wings. I was on a bisycle when I first took notice of them   more...and it was cold. I was driving back home after a dinner with friends. While I drove over the bridges, I tried to steal something of the beauty of the stars with my eyes and take them along while I was driving across the rather bumpy roads, rising decending, rising decending. NO, not like a wave. Not smoothly and yet not roughtly either, perhaps a little in a hurry, to escape the icy chill that painted my face blue. The streets so empty, the hands frozen purple. Over the bridges of history, underneath where the emerald had turned to jet even with lighing. I slowed down and looked up.

If you never look at the sky you won't be able to find stars. Stars come in all shapes and sizes and if you open your eyes and not rush past them, you'll be able to see them them caught somewhere. Perhaps in a smile.

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I'm working on a new collaboration project so I've sent out a bunch of emails. It's going to be about Livevideo users explaining their slogans or quotes, why they chose them and perhaps if there's a deeper meaning in them, what they represent. I was cruising around profiles trying to find people but a lot of people didn't have anything yet. I wrote to a lot of users about it and I really hope this is going to be great. I have 3 people who have agreed so far. I just left xxQuicky a long comment about   more...her acting video. Maybe if you're reading this (which I doubt) and check her out, you can drop her a line as to what you think she can improve in her scene; she is auditioning for a school play and perhaps some of your comments might actually help her. It's around 2 am over here.

My eyes burn as though they have been dipped in poisonous paint, well perhaps not that much as though they have been locked in a virtual dungeon and then all of sudden exposed to pearly rays of light. I'm not sleepy. No. I said I'm not sleepy. It's almost like an inner protest. I'm an adult, this is my own schedule. Is it good for me though? Deffinately not. I'm worried. I should study more. Am I addicted to the net. Not perhaps, if I said maybe it would be an illusion. Yes, I am. There are moments which fill you up with emptyness when you think that you're full and you notice afterwards, that is if you ever open your eyes. I'm caught in a virtual reality a reality like a sweet and yet poisonous virus that slowly chews your body and sucks the energy like an insekt sucks on a flower. There are countries where people drink cheep perfume because of the alkohol in them but it kills them, so I heard. Drink its nectar, eat the apple adam, eat the apple adam said the snake; an ANNACONDA perhaps? No. Was it an Anaconda who killed the little prince? I may drink poison, perhaps conciously perhaps without knowing it on a daily basis but I couldn't carry it in me and spill it on people. Some people poison through words, others through their actions and some may get attention through these things. A couple of days ago, I was in a chatroom on stickam; yes you can have a good conversation in a chatroom but what is it compared to one in real life. Where you can watch the eyes speak and laugh when the lips aren't even moving. The topic was religion. Someone in the room said, religion is war and most people agreed. I had to disagree however. I believe it's a minority, a fraction of the followers who create war, who perhaps create a bad image of the religion. The majority of the people are peaceful and there are countries with all sorts of religions who have never fought out for religious reasons. The image terrorism created about islam is disappointing. Are those who abuse religion to get more power, the power to destroy true believers. Is George W Bush or any politician who uses religion to strengthen the support a true believer. Its both a missuse of religion to me. Is somebody more religious who attempts the church every sunday compared to someone who believes in that religion but doesn't do that. No. I think it's within the people. Someone might attempt the church all the time and even build churches because in some countries, it's perhaps a fashion to build a little church when you have some money.

Hmm so you're reading this, really? (-: I doubt it but just in case good night  less

-working on a subscribers thank you vid (with individual mentions as always)
-intro vid 2 here because I have to
and painting a bottle figure of kimberleigh...

3pm I just woke up: oh shoot the light is going to vanish soon...

Hello my wonderfully electronic live vid diary, that doesn't smell like crushed petals and doesn't look like dancing in the amber light on the dew of an emerald leaf.
I had russian in the morning and then I had all day basically free, I bought myself a really interesting Anatomy book for Artists by Jeno Barcsay so I'm hoping this will give me a new impulse to work on my technique. I've tried recording a video specifically for this site but my cam is very messed up at the moment so I will have to   more...wait until daylight, to record something better. In the last couple of days I had a sudden impulse to draw people from youtube and the outcome was neither technically nor otherwise what I expected. I feel howerver unrealistic these colored chalk pastel drawings are, they still have some resemblance to the people I drew; although I must admit that a child could draw much better (the pictures I have so far are: periruban, boh3m3, smpfilms, three drawings of renetto because I did a video response to exkaryote from youtube once and damien from yourtubenews). I doubt there are people who will read my diary so I will have a video up on here or on youtube where you can discuss the resemblance or post better pictures perhaps as video comments. I was happy to see that people actually subscribed to me on here when I didn't even have a video up. This was very sweet. Thank you. At the moment I have 23 subscribers and I come across familiar faces all the time. Yes mikma was here (-:P. Mikma did this awesome coke and mentos vid ((-: The best thing that I think is that this site featured periurban. He is one of my fave users on both sites and I was hoping they'd feature him on youtube ( I even wrote to them). The reason why I joined this site is actually because I saw his video. Peri said he'd post his music here and continue with his vlogs on there, so I had to join and another reason was to get my original membername without the 1984. I noticed many good features and saw familiar faces so I'll be on here when I won't be on youtube and vice versa. People are doing all sorts of comaprisons between the sites now. It would be really great if they intergraded a little chat system where you can actually speak to the people who are online. Another idea would be if you can have glittergraphics in the comment section why not a voice comment. That would be great. You record yourself brifly saying what you like or dislike and comment on it.

I have a creative phase, I'm making characters out of fruit2day bottles; they are kinda one fingerspan long and have a funny shape. I'm thinking of creating a few livede's  less